Sammyeb27
11-10-18, 04:13
SEVERE Lung cancer trigger warning
Part of this is just venting my sadness and releaving my fear of death and sickness. I've always struggled with health anxiety and the only thing that gave me reassurance was knowing that the things I am always afraid of are rare and uncommon and that I must be safe from them. My friend is only 18 years old and has been diagnosed with lung cancer. They're okay with it, and are refusing treatment which is understandable as I know the things they've been through their whole life. They've kept this diagnoses a secret for a year. Last time I saw them they were coughing so much and kept being super reckless, probably knowing that it didn't matter what happened when they're not living a long time anyway. I didn't think anything of it at the time, but now I feel horrible. I cant comprehend how someone could want to die when they're so young. It makes me appreciate how simple my life has been in comparison, and really made me think about how I need to live the rest of my life. I need to look after myself and enjoy it while it lasts, because seeing my friend now will mean so much more before they're gone. I'm sorry for this to anyone scared of lung cancer, theyve been a heavy smoker and worked in unsafe work environments pretty much their whole life so it didn't just appear out of the blue. I just felt the need to tell someone, even if its strangers, because this is not something I can share with people I know since it is being kept so secret. I really wish anyone struggling with lung cancer recovering health, and I'm probably going to start a fundraiser for lung cancer when they have passed away. Thank you.
Part of this is just venting my sadness and releaving my fear of death and sickness. I've always struggled with health anxiety and the only thing that gave me reassurance was knowing that the things I am always afraid of are rare and uncommon and that I must be safe from them. My friend is only 18 years old and has been diagnosed with lung cancer. They're okay with it, and are refusing treatment which is understandable as I know the things they've been through their whole life. They've kept this diagnoses a secret for a year. Last time I saw them they were coughing so much and kept being super reckless, probably knowing that it didn't matter what happened when they're not living a long time anyway. I didn't think anything of it at the time, but now I feel horrible. I cant comprehend how someone could want to die when they're so young. It makes me appreciate how simple my life has been in comparison, and really made me think about how I need to live the rest of my life. I need to look after myself and enjoy it while it lasts, because seeing my friend now will mean so much more before they're gone. I'm sorry for this to anyone scared of lung cancer, theyve been a heavy smoker and worked in unsafe work environments pretty much their whole life so it didn't just appear out of the blue. I just felt the need to tell someone, even if its strangers, because this is not something I can share with people I know since it is being kept so secret. I really wish anyone struggling with lung cancer recovering health, and I'm probably going to start a fundraiser for lung cancer when they have passed away. Thank you.