mocata
16-10-18, 22:25
hello! my aunt had hodgkinson's (low grade i think) at 28. i am 17 atm. i'm so terrified of developments it's impeding my ability to do coursework a bit, which feeds it in return.... my main symptoms:
0.9-1.3cm lump in the middle of my mastoid bone. i found it two and a half weeks ago. painless and rubbery. i think slightly movable but sometimes difficult to differentiate from the skin above. at the moment it feels like a stout moon shape (the curve is the side i have poked often) but im unsure :( i think it fluctuates and is rounder in the mornings but may just be anxiety levels. sooo scared it has gotten slightly bigger (1-2mm?) (but likewise unsure)
a little secondary lump underneath ~ .2-3mm
pains all over the body, esp. q. bad aching in the legs. i've had muscle tension from the back since last november, can be quite bad some times... also sleep paralysis/fitful sleep since discovering the lump, and once my hands seized up for a few secs whilst sitting?
the bit behind my left knee feels swollen, and the surrounding muscles i think are a bit swollen also. although my left leg is v. slightly shorter.
the left side of the stomach also slightly swollen? but i think it might have always been this way
i saw two gps who sorta said it's absolutely not cancer, probs a cyst and they wouldn't take chances if it felt off but i'm a bit doubtful because i don't think they felt the slight irregularity of it since it can seem circular if u don't press down to the harder part. they seemed to just sorta give it an offhanded massage lol! and um they know my history of anxiety so im scared they will dismiss me too quickly for both our sakes :(
im not so afraid of lymphoma itself as of terminal cancer. i haven't lost any weight, not v. tired despite terrible sleep, can still run about, good appetite...
thank u for any response x
0.9-1.3cm lump in the middle of my mastoid bone. i found it two and a half weeks ago. painless and rubbery. i think slightly movable but sometimes difficult to differentiate from the skin above. at the moment it feels like a stout moon shape (the curve is the side i have poked often) but im unsure :( i think it fluctuates and is rounder in the mornings but may just be anxiety levels. sooo scared it has gotten slightly bigger (1-2mm?) (but likewise unsure)
a little secondary lump underneath ~ .2-3mm
pains all over the body, esp. q. bad aching in the legs. i've had muscle tension from the back since last november, can be quite bad some times... also sleep paralysis/fitful sleep since discovering the lump, and once my hands seized up for a few secs whilst sitting?
the bit behind my left knee feels swollen, and the surrounding muscles i think are a bit swollen also. although my left leg is v. slightly shorter.
the left side of the stomach also slightly swollen? but i think it might have always been this way
i saw two gps who sorta said it's absolutely not cancer, probs a cyst and they wouldn't take chances if it felt off but i'm a bit doubtful because i don't think they felt the slight irregularity of it since it can seem circular if u don't press down to the harder part. they seemed to just sorta give it an offhanded massage lol! and um they know my history of anxiety so im scared they will dismiss me too quickly for both our sakes :(
im not so afraid of lymphoma itself as of terminal cancer. i haven't lost any weight, not v. tired despite terrible sleep, can still run about, good appetite...
thank u for any response x