Louna
24-10-18, 04:44
Hello lovely folks of NMP. Its been months since i have posted.
After my Long QT syndrome diagnosis, things have been pretty positive. My anxiety has calmed down A LOT. Yes i have a slightly dysfunctional heart but its treatable, so i’m okay and will be okay. My anxiety regarding my heart has actually almost completely gone away, lol.
Tonight is the first night i have had a proper set back in about 5 months. A real irrational set back and i’m just disappointed in myself really. I was doing so well.
i was looking at my skin tonight because i wanted to buy a foundation. So i was checking the colour of my veins to see what “skin undertones” i have. (Blue veins - cool undertones. At least i can buy my foundation now, lol.)
Anyway, whilst looking at my skin i come across this small yellow patch of skin.
I start absolutely freaking out, it came from nowhere. So i put into practice some anxiety steps i have been using.
Step 1 - Drink water.
Step 2 - think logicially.
Step 3 - distract myself.
Logical thinking says its probably a bruise that is in the healing / almost gone stage. Its a small patch of skin, in the shape of a bruise, and its the only patch of yellow on my body.
But tonight, logical thinking isn’t helping. My mind is jumping to every bad thing. Cancer? An infection spreading? Kidney failure? YIKES!
I’ve attached a picture. I know i’m being stupid. But tonight i can’t shake this anxiety.
I’m so dissappointed in myself for this set back when i was doing so, so well :(
After my Long QT syndrome diagnosis, things have been pretty positive. My anxiety has calmed down A LOT. Yes i have a slightly dysfunctional heart but its treatable, so i’m okay and will be okay. My anxiety regarding my heart has actually almost completely gone away, lol.
Tonight is the first night i have had a proper set back in about 5 months. A real irrational set back and i’m just disappointed in myself really. I was doing so well.
i was looking at my skin tonight because i wanted to buy a foundation. So i was checking the colour of my veins to see what “skin undertones” i have. (Blue veins - cool undertones. At least i can buy my foundation now, lol.)
Anyway, whilst looking at my skin i come across this small yellow patch of skin.
I start absolutely freaking out, it came from nowhere. So i put into practice some anxiety steps i have been using.
Step 1 - Drink water.
Step 2 - think logicially.
Step 3 - distract myself.
Logical thinking says its probably a bruise that is in the healing / almost gone stage. Its a small patch of skin, in the shape of a bruise, and its the only patch of yellow on my body.
But tonight, logical thinking isn’t helping. My mind is jumping to every bad thing. Cancer? An infection spreading? Kidney failure? YIKES!
I’ve attached a picture. I know i’m being stupid. But tonight i can’t shake this anxiety.
I’m so dissappointed in myself for this set back when i was doing so, so well :(