pray4me
08-11-18, 18:26
I try not to post here but am at the end of my rope. I have been having a really difficult time with anxiety lately. Back in August I stumbled upon a news article about risk factors for dementia. The article addressed risk factors unrelated to family history (ones to worry about even without a family history) such as vision, blood pressure, number of pregnancies etc. Basically I convinced myself that I am at risk of the disease. Ever since it has been a nightmare. I am constantly testing my memory and every little slip with memory, talking, typing sends me into a tizzy.
This morning a very worrying thing happened. I said the word peanuts when I meant to say pistachios. My husband was chastising me about not closing the lid of a box of cashew nuts the night before. I knew this was my fault, and I was trying to makeup an excuse. Also, I realized I had eaten pistachios the night before (out of a bag) and not cashews. So I said 'I did not eat the cashews yesterday, I ate peanuts'. He asked me again why I hadn't closed the box. So again I said, 'I did not eat the cashews yesterday, I ate peanuts'. He said we don't have any peanuts at home. So I tried reminding him that I ate the 'peanuts' in front of him, and just then I realized that I was thinking pistachios but saying peanuts. I was about to correct myself but my husband beat me to it.
That I said the wrong word twice worries me no end. Also my husband noticed I said the wrong word. I have read that If other people notice then it means you are losing your mind (although I also later realized my own mistake). Has this ever happened to anyone else, please??
Could this from my high levels of anxiety. I have had a horrid week worrying about other diseases too:
On Monday I had some water go down the wrong pipe as I was drinking out of a bottle - worried about MND
Tuesday - worried that my left (non-dominant hand) was less coordinated that right, so kept testing myself
Wed - thought I saw blood mixed with vaginal discharge, turned out to be threads of fabric from my underwear
This morning - thought I saw blood in my poo, turned out to be tomato
Also just before I had the above conversation with my husband, I was immersed in thoughts about my 'bloody' poo, my granddad's colorectal cancer, and whether I need a colonoscopy. So I was immensely anxious and distracted.
Please help me!
This morning a very worrying thing happened. I said the word peanuts when I meant to say pistachios. My husband was chastising me about not closing the lid of a box of cashew nuts the night before. I knew this was my fault, and I was trying to makeup an excuse. Also, I realized I had eaten pistachios the night before (out of a bag) and not cashews. So I said 'I did not eat the cashews yesterday, I ate peanuts'. He asked me again why I hadn't closed the box. So again I said, 'I did not eat the cashews yesterday, I ate peanuts'. He said we don't have any peanuts at home. So I tried reminding him that I ate the 'peanuts' in front of him, and just then I realized that I was thinking pistachios but saying peanuts. I was about to correct myself but my husband beat me to it.
That I said the wrong word twice worries me no end. Also my husband noticed I said the wrong word. I have read that If other people notice then it means you are losing your mind (although I also later realized my own mistake). Has this ever happened to anyone else, please??
Could this from my high levels of anxiety. I have had a horrid week worrying about other diseases too:
On Monday I had some water go down the wrong pipe as I was drinking out of a bottle - worried about MND
Tuesday - worried that my left (non-dominant hand) was less coordinated that right, so kept testing myself
Wed - thought I saw blood mixed with vaginal discharge, turned out to be threads of fabric from my underwear
This morning - thought I saw blood in my poo, turned out to be tomato
Also just before I had the above conversation with my husband, I was immersed in thoughts about my 'bloody' poo, my granddad's colorectal cancer, and whether I need a colonoscopy. So I was immensely anxious and distracted.
Please help me!