Paul87
18-11-18, 20:59
Is this normal and what is it as it is actually making my anxious worse and is the actual reason behind most of my anxiety
Like for example this is one of many examples I could use I ordered a taxi just now he said he will be 20 minutes or so and because I have to wait? I have these thoughts saying
“Run your trapped here” - but I’m at home and perfectly safe? But I start believing the thoughts
“Your going to have anxiety”
“You can’t wait you can’t cope with waiting”
“You need to go now”
“Your mad this isn’t normal”
“You should kill yourself”
“This will never go it never gets better”
So currently at this moment I’m fighting my own thoughts, my own inner voice? While also fighting anxiety?
I’m sat here fighting anxiety and my own mind and it’s over something so stupid and so little, like why can’t I wait what is wrong with waiting?
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After 18 minutes of waiting while trying get on with stuff and get ready I started to get some of the anxiety symptoms I usually get and my heart started to race and my thoughts were “oh no if I have a panic attack how will I calm down”
So I booked taxi from elsewhere on a app and rang my driver he said he’s on toilet and be 10 minutes lol but somehow they relaxed me enough to cancel the one I was going to book
I got ready all calm and he rang me just now at 20:54 to say he’s leaving his home now and for me to stand outside it’s been a whole 33 minutes of waiting so far by the time he arrives it prob be 40 minutes
But why is such a normal task such a hard task now a days? And why has my inner voice gained such strength?
Like for example this is one of many examples I could use I ordered a taxi just now he said he will be 20 minutes or so and because I have to wait? I have these thoughts saying
“Run your trapped here” - but I’m at home and perfectly safe? But I start believing the thoughts
“Your going to have anxiety”
“You can’t wait you can’t cope with waiting”
“You need to go now”
“Your mad this isn’t normal”
“You should kill yourself”
“This will never go it never gets better”
So currently at this moment I’m fighting my own thoughts, my own inner voice? While also fighting anxiety?
I’m sat here fighting anxiety and my own mind and it’s over something so stupid and so little, like why can’t I wait what is wrong with waiting?
---------- Post added at 20:59 ---------- Previous post was at 20:34 ----------
After 18 minutes of waiting while trying get on with stuff and get ready I started to get some of the anxiety symptoms I usually get and my heart started to race and my thoughts were “oh no if I have a panic attack how will I calm down”
So I booked taxi from elsewhere on a app and rang my driver he said he’s on toilet and be 10 minutes lol but somehow they relaxed me enough to cancel the one I was going to book
I got ready all calm and he rang me just now at 20:54 to say he’s leaving his home now and for me to stand outside it’s been a whole 33 minutes of waiting so far by the time he arrives it prob be 40 minutes
But why is such a normal task such a hard task now a days? And why has my inner voice gained such strength?