sthldnboy
29-08-07, 09:27
Hi,
I have suffered with anxiety disorder for 5 years now. All the symptons - in and out of A+E - convinced i had a heart problem - checking my pulse - dying - severe depression...the lot.
This year as the queen once said has been my annus horribilus.
I was on holiday in Gran Canaria in Jan and got a kidney infection, came home was put on antibiotics - felt bad at work and then had the mother of all panic attacks and was rushed to hospital - i was convinced i was having a heart attack and was going to die. Was of work with Anxiety for 2 months - had tests - ECG's - Excercise stress test - 24 heart monitor - all came back fine. Went to see a counsellor and finally faced a lot of my demons - stripped myself back to find the real me and have been slowing recognising who i am and trying to be positive.
It turns out i have kidney stones and i have been having lithotripsy and that hurts and i keep getting infections and have been off work again.
My anxiety has come leaping back with a vengeance. Insomnia - lethargy - feeling bad - and now the swallowing issue - where i literally have to cough up just to clear my thraot and it feels like i am choking.
I feel like i want to quit my job and take some me time because i am so stressed and have even thought of moving out of london which is something i want to do.
Will i ever be free of anxiety - because just when i think everything is ok - it comes right back at me.
I feel like i need a change - and my whole body is telling me to change my life
Thanks for listening
Paul
I have suffered with anxiety disorder for 5 years now. All the symptons - in and out of A+E - convinced i had a heart problem - checking my pulse - dying - severe depression...the lot.
This year as the queen once said has been my annus horribilus.
I was on holiday in Gran Canaria in Jan and got a kidney infection, came home was put on antibiotics - felt bad at work and then had the mother of all panic attacks and was rushed to hospital - i was convinced i was having a heart attack and was going to die. Was of work with Anxiety for 2 months - had tests - ECG's - Excercise stress test - 24 heart monitor - all came back fine. Went to see a counsellor and finally faced a lot of my demons - stripped myself back to find the real me and have been slowing recognising who i am and trying to be positive.
It turns out i have kidney stones and i have been having lithotripsy and that hurts and i keep getting infections and have been off work again.
My anxiety has come leaping back with a vengeance. Insomnia - lethargy - feeling bad - and now the swallowing issue - where i literally have to cough up just to clear my thraot and it feels like i am choking.
I feel like i want to quit my job and take some me time because i am so stressed and have even thought of moving out of london which is something i want to do.
Will i ever be free of anxiety - because just when i think everything is ok - it comes right back at me.
I feel like i need a change - and my whole body is telling me to change my life
Thanks for listening
Paul