ShaunRyder
13-12-18, 00:05
Ok so if you have seen my posts over the past few years you will know I have a huge fear of being arrested due to getting in trouble with the law when I was younger and the whole situation has been stuck with me.
So it was my first night out in months as I do not drink much anymore and it was my works Xmas do, towards the end of the night we was in a club and everyone was a little drunk dancing etc. Then I remember some one pushing me in the side of the face and when I turned round people were holding him back, I walked off to the bar and didnt think much of it but then a bouncer came up to me and asked me to leave for the night, he didn't physically throw me out.
At the time I didnt think anything of it and all day Sunday I was fine, it was sunday night and I was in bed and the panic hit me out of nowhere, I started to think I had done something to someone like touched them in an inappropriate way and now I am going to be getting arrested for something bad. I remembered it all well but now I have been going over and over it is just a blue and I keep picturing myself doing something I didnt.
I know I never threw a punch or done anything bad, I keep telling myself I barged into him accidently and he didnt like it etc but my brain keeps going mad with different scenarios.
Since Monday I have been in bed worrying and called in sick 3 days in a row and left my bed only for dinner which I can barely eat. convinced every day the police will be round to get me, I also have a family xmas meal this weekend and convinced I will be arrested and kept in the police station the whole night away from my family even thought I KNOW I never done anything. Even though I know I didnt do anything I worry that someone will lie to get me in trouble!
Sorry for the long post, this is exactly why I don't drink anymore.
My worry of being arrested is very bad, I can sometimes worry if I brush past someone in the street and they shout assault. About a year ago I got home from work and on the news a suspected bomb threat had been planted on the exact road I had walked past only half hour earlier and was convinced I was caught on CCTV walking through and would be a suspect. I once got attacked and wallet stolen, but I was the one worried I had done something bad. It really does get out of control
So it was my first night out in months as I do not drink much anymore and it was my works Xmas do, towards the end of the night we was in a club and everyone was a little drunk dancing etc. Then I remember some one pushing me in the side of the face and when I turned round people were holding him back, I walked off to the bar and didnt think much of it but then a bouncer came up to me and asked me to leave for the night, he didn't physically throw me out.
At the time I didnt think anything of it and all day Sunday I was fine, it was sunday night and I was in bed and the panic hit me out of nowhere, I started to think I had done something to someone like touched them in an inappropriate way and now I am going to be getting arrested for something bad. I remembered it all well but now I have been going over and over it is just a blue and I keep picturing myself doing something I didnt.
I know I never threw a punch or done anything bad, I keep telling myself I barged into him accidently and he didnt like it etc but my brain keeps going mad with different scenarios.
Since Monday I have been in bed worrying and called in sick 3 days in a row and left my bed only for dinner which I can barely eat. convinced every day the police will be round to get me, I also have a family xmas meal this weekend and convinced I will be arrested and kept in the police station the whole night away from my family even thought I KNOW I never done anything. Even though I know I didnt do anything I worry that someone will lie to get me in trouble!
Sorry for the long post, this is exactly why I don't drink anymore.
My worry of being arrested is very bad, I can sometimes worry if I brush past someone in the street and they shout assault. About a year ago I got home from work and on the news a suspected bomb threat had been planted on the exact road I had walked past only half hour earlier and was convinced I was caught on CCTV walking through and would be a suspect. I once got attacked and wallet stolen, but I was the one worried I had done something bad. It really does get out of control