Jotia
24-12-18, 22:08
Agh I’m so fed up of this . I was looking in the mirror and noticed the corners of my eyes have blue patches in the white. So I did the stupid thing and googled.
It came up with EDS which I have previously heard of from googling about my double joints. So I was reading the symptoms and of course my anxiety has to latch on to the vascular type which causes sudden death in people.
Now I can’t stop searching my body for veins, I can see some veins on my chest which is a symptom. The veins on my feet are bulging too and I have some spider veins already. Also the blue in my eyes is a marker for it. I don’t bruise easily but it said online symptoms can be subtle meaning it goes undiagnosed. I also have very stretchy skin, on my hands and feet especially and I didn’t realise is wasn’t suppose to be this stretchy even at 19.
I have been obsessively looking at photos of my self for the facial features. My nose looks thin as a kid and even still now which scares me. I also had thin lips. I have convinced my self I also have a small looking chin and big eyes.
I did however look at my mums eyes and she has the same blue patches in the corners which relaxed me a bit but I’m still freaked out. I’m currently in bed crying because I probably only have a few years to live. No chance of enjoying Christmas now.
It came up with EDS which I have previously heard of from googling about my double joints. So I was reading the symptoms and of course my anxiety has to latch on to the vascular type which causes sudden death in people.
Now I can’t stop searching my body for veins, I can see some veins on my chest which is a symptom. The veins on my feet are bulging too and I have some spider veins already. Also the blue in my eyes is a marker for it. I don’t bruise easily but it said online symptoms can be subtle meaning it goes undiagnosed. I also have very stretchy skin, on my hands and feet especially and I didn’t realise is wasn’t suppose to be this stretchy even at 19.
I have been obsessively looking at photos of my self for the facial features. My nose looks thin as a kid and even still now which scares me. I also had thin lips. I have convinced my self I also have a small looking chin and big eyes.
I did however look at my mums eyes and she has the same blue patches in the corners which relaxed me a bit but I’m still freaked out. I’m currently in bed crying because I probably only have a few years to live. No chance of enjoying Christmas now.