Blondie
12-01-05, 23:51
Hi everyone!
This is my first post so i'll try not to mess it up.
My name is Sarah and I'm 21. I had my first panic attack when I was 16 after a bad reaction to an ecstacy tablet - during which i checked myself into hospital!
Didnt get another one til I was living in Spain a year later.
After I moved back into the area I got one whilst looking after the pub I worked in with my boyfriend. I was upstairs alone and didnt know what was going on! Since then it became uncontrolable to the point I couldnt even leave my house (I live with my mum still - because of this).
I went to a hypnotherapist and thought I was more or less cured for a while - new job, new friends, no boyfriend. Then a couple of weeks ago at work it happened again and has spiralled out of control again!
I'm desperately trying to force myself out of the house but feel horrible if my mum's not with me. It's really depressing to be so dependent on her after I have been so independent in the past.
My boyfriend of 6 months has been really good about it, but I'm scared I'll lose him as I can't go out with him and don't want to make him stay in with me. He's young too after all, but it means I rarely get to see him as he works and wants a life.
Life just seems so hard at the moment. I feel like I'm missing out on my best years! So glad to discover there are other people who are suffering too.
Its good to meet all of you guys - you seem to really understand how hard this can be. xxx
This is my first post so i'll try not to mess it up.
My name is Sarah and I'm 21. I had my first panic attack when I was 16 after a bad reaction to an ecstacy tablet - during which i checked myself into hospital!
Didnt get another one til I was living in Spain a year later.
After I moved back into the area I got one whilst looking after the pub I worked in with my boyfriend. I was upstairs alone and didnt know what was going on! Since then it became uncontrolable to the point I couldnt even leave my house (I live with my mum still - because of this).
I went to a hypnotherapist and thought I was more or less cured for a while - new job, new friends, no boyfriend. Then a couple of weeks ago at work it happened again and has spiralled out of control again!
I'm desperately trying to force myself out of the house but feel horrible if my mum's not with me. It's really depressing to be so dependent on her after I have been so independent in the past.
My boyfriend of 6 months has been really good about it, but I'm scared I'll lose him as I can't go out with him and don't want to make him stay in with me. He's young too after all, but it means I rarely get to see him as he works and wants a life.
Life just seems so hard at the moment. I feel like I'm missing out on my best years! So glad to discover there are other people who are suffering too.
Its good to meet all of you guys - you seem to really understand how hard this can be. xxx