niknakx
06-01-19, 16:02
Hi guys, I'm sorry I've been posting so much on here recently. I've been having a very difficult time with my health anxiety in the last few weeks, to the point where I feel like I can no longer function properly, I'm like a husk of my former self.
So, currently I am having a total breakdown and panic over stomach cancer. I basically saw that I woman had died of it in her 30s and my stupid brain thought it would be a good idea to look up the symptoms (why oh why I thought this was a good idea, I will never know and I am so annoyed at myself). Anyway cue the mass hysteria, I saw that trapped air, belching and an uncomfortable feeling in your abdomen can be a symptom of it and I pretty much fell off the deep end and spiraled fast.
I'm only 25 and have had health anxiety scares before (all of which turned out to be nothing). I had one serious bout of health anxiety a couple of years ago and I ended up paying to see a private consultant and having a bunch of tests. My parents and boyfriend were annoyed because I spent a lot of money getting it looked at, but it did sort out my anxiety and I got over it when they told me I was fine. So now I'm in the same predicament, I feel that if I see a specialist this time and speak to them then I will finally calm down, although my family would be furious if they found out I spent more money to be looked at (they all think I'm being ridiculous, which I know I am). I can see how much my health anxiety is affecting them and stressing them out and I just want to be done with it. Should I go anyway and just talk to the specialist, otherwise I don't see a way out of this pit?
So, currently I am having a total breakdown and panic over stomach cancer. I basically saw that I woman had died of it in her 30s and my stupid brain thought it would be a good idea to look up the symptoms (why oh why I thought this was a good idea, I will never know and I am so annoyed at myself). Anyway cue the mass hysteria, I saw that trapped air, belching and an uncomfortable feeling in your abdomen can be a symptom of it and I pretty much fell off the deep end and spiraled fast.
I'm only 25 and have had health anxiety scares before (all of which turned out to be nothing). I had one serious bout of health anxiety a couple of years ago and I ended up paying to see a private consultant and having a bunch of tests. My parents and boyfriend were annoyed because I spent a lot of money getting it looked at, but it did sort out my anxiety and I got over it when they told me I was fine. So now I'm in the same predicament, I feel that if I see a specialist this time and speak to them then I will finally calm down, although my family would be furious if they found out I spent more money to be looked at (they all think I'm being ridiculous, which I know I am). I can see how much my health anxiety is affecting them and stressing them out and I just want to be done with it. Should I go anyway and just talk to the specialist, otherwise I don't see a way out of this pit?