Loggie05
11-01-19, 23:13
13 whole damn years ive been dealing with the dreaded health anxiety. I know most symptoms are caused by anxiety but i have a couple that aren't.
Firstly is random vaginal bleeding. This started in June 2016 and has gotten slightly better over time. I seen the Dr and she carried out a smear and sent me for an urgent hospital appointment. I went and was told the problem is hormonal and had a coil fitted. Unbeknownst to me i also had biopsies taken from my womb. Smear test and biopsy all came back clear.
Secondly ive had a few episodes of bleeding from the back passage. I haven't yet been to Dr because i done a bowel cancer checker on the nhs website and it said most likely piles/fissure and its safe to wait 4 weeks to see if the bleeding gets better on its own. It hasnt so i will be seeing the gp on Monday.
So my question is how do i get her to take these symptoms seriously? I know she is gonna point out my anxiety but i dont think she realises that not having these problems fixed is really playing havoc with me mentally and physically. I have had two 14 week sessions of cbt. I also take 200mg sertraline and 35mg mirtazipine. However both of these symptoms are causing me great distress. My relationship with my husband is falling apart because i refuse to have sex or any kind of interaction with him that might lead to sex due to the bleeding. I am on constant high alert and going to the extreme of collecting stool samples and looking at it through a magnifying glass i have hidden in the cistern. My behaviour is erratic and not normal. I fear going to the toilet, i fear showering, i fear eating, i fear losing weight, i fear seeing 1 magpie, i fear sleeping in the same bed as my husband, i fear life and i dont know what to do next.
If you got this far thankyou and i hope ive not turned you as crazy as i seem to be turning myself. Xx
Firstly is random vaginal bleeding. This started in June 2016 and has gotten slightly better over time. I seen the Dr and she carried out a smear and sent me for an urgent hospital appointment. I went and was told the problem is hormonal and had a coil fitted. Unbeknownst to me i also had biopsies taken from my womb. Smear test and biopsy all came back clear.
Secondly ive had a few episodes of bleeding from the back passage. I haven't yet been to Dr because i done a bowel cancer checker on the nhs website and it said most likely piles/fissure and its safe to wait 4 weeks to see if the bleeding gets better on its own. It hasnt so i will be seeing the gp on Monday.
So my question is how do i get her to take these symptoms seriously? I know she is gonna point out my anxiety but i dont think she realises that not having these problems fixed is really playing havoc with me mentally and physically. I have had two 14 week sessions of cbt. I also take 200mg sertraline and 35mg mirtazipine. However both of these symptoms are causing me great distress. My relationship with my husband is falling apart because i refuse to have sex or any kind of interaction with him that might lead to sex due to the bleeding. I am on constant high alert and going to the extreme of collecting stool samples and looking at it through a magnifying glass i have hidden in the cistern. My behaviour is erratic and not normal. I fear going to the toilet, i fear showering, i fear eating, i fear losing weight, i fear seeing 1 magpie, i fear sleeping in the same bed as my husband, i fear life and i dont know what to do next.
If you got this far thankyou and i hope ive not turned you as crazy as i seem to be turning myself. Xx