erinjaye
21-01-19, 05:50
Hi all! Haven't posted in awhile. Good news is all of my fluctuating blood work from last year is normal for now and I've been better about managing my chronic pain. Still have rough days of course but making progress! Bad news is I've been having shortness of breath when trying to sleep at night. Gets better as long as I'm active but as soon as I lay down my chest and throat tighten. Had a chest x ray today at urgent care. and the dr said it looks like the early stages of COPD. He says I'm only 36 so its reversible but previous 20 years of smoking caught up to me. He referred me to a pulmonary doctor for lung function tests. I had these done 3 years ago and they were normal but then again my chest x ray 6 months ago was also normal. I'm really embarrassed and scared. This is my own fault. We have been trying to get pregnant, but now I'm scared to bring a child into this world with a mom who has lung disease and might not be around long enough. I was hysterically crying earlier, but my boyfriend isn't too concerned, just says it's my wake up call to take better care of myself. They gave me an inhaler and it makes me jittery, not sure which is worse, to be jittery or unable to breathe well. Anyway needed to vent this out. Appreciate any advice, have already quit smoking.