gg478
21-01-19, 06:39
I'm going to apologize in advice because I'm going to go on a little rant. I'm sorry.
I'm tire of how I am I'm tired of having HA it has done nothing but cause me trouble. When ever I find something it worries me thinking I have cancer I hate this I hate that I can't stop worrying or thinking about it. I hate that it comes in waves like I would go a good couple of weeks then all of a sudden find something or have someone bring up cancer and I go right back to where I was. I wish I could go back to normal I never been afraid of getting sick I was never constantly looking discovering things. The fear of me getting cancer or some disease never once cross my mind now I can't stop worrying about it. I'm just so sick and tired of being this way I'm only 20 I hate how I am I hate myself for being this way I just tired of HA it keeps me up some nights it puts me in depression and when I think it's finally over it comes right back with a new cancer fear. I've been doing everything I can to better myself I've been riding an exercise bike for 30 mins almost everyday, I'm trying to eat better, I already don't smoke, I'm starting to meditate, I can't afford counseling plus all the therapist that I've seen growing up never really helped me with anything. I really don't know what else I can do to help better myself and help better my HA right now I'm currently worrying about oral cancer I can't get into see my dentist until march so my HA has been all over the place I really have been trying to control it but it just keeps getting harder. My family is tired of hearing my worries so are my only two friends and I don't blame them they done all they can do to help me. I don't if any of you any advice or anything that you do that helps you deal with but I would like to hear about them. Again I just want to apologize for the rant I'm just so tired of this. If you make it all the way down here I hope have a good day and hope you are doing well.
I'm tire of how I am I'm tired of having HA it has done nothing but cause me trouble. When ever I find something it worries me thinking I have cancer I hate this I hate that I can't stop worrying or thinking about it. I hate that it comes in waves like I would go a good couple of weeks then all of a sudden find something or have someone bring up cancer and I go right back to where I was. I wish I could go back to normal I never been afraid of getting sick I was never constantly looking discovering things. The fear of me getting cancer or some disease never once cross my mind now I can't stop worrying about it. I'm just so sick and tired of being this way I'm only 20 I hate how I am I hate myself for being this way I just tired of HA it keeps me up some nights it puts me in depression and when I think it's finally over it comes right back with a new cancer fear. I've been doing everything I can to better myself I've been riding an exercise bike for 30 mins almost everyday, I'm trying to eat better, I already don't smoke, I'm starting to meditate, I can't afford counseling plus all the therapist that I've seen growing up never really helped me with anything. I really don't know what else I can do to help better myself and help better my HA right now I'm currently worrying about oral cancer I can't get into see my dentist until march so my HA has been all over the place I really have been trying to control it but it just keeps getting harder. My family is tired of hearing my worries so are my only two friends and I don't blame them they done all they can do to help me. I don't if any of you any advice or anything that you do that helps you deal with but I would like to hear about them. Again I just want to apologize for the rant I'm just so tired of this. If you make it all the way down here I hope have a good day and hope you are doing well.