tan235
26-01-19, 22:41
Hi All,
So I've had again a terrible bout of anxiety - worried about having shingles and then weird spots appeared on my body that freaked me out, I thought I had blood poisoning many times, nearly took myself to the hospital, I've taken photos of my small red wound and sent them to my friend whose a Dr who must think I'm crazy, now of course the wounds are almost gone ( which i also thought were spider bites) and the shingles is going and I"m left with a deep dark friend called depression.
I spent all day yesterday in bed watching horrors, I can't smile, my flat mate it talking to me but the whole time I want him to go away. My daughter is with her Dad for a week which couldn't be better timing. I HATE feeling like this.
My business is super busy - I have my own company but I"m failing it, I"m behind, admin is creeping up, tax is over due, GST is over due, emails are not being answered, I go to answer them and then it's almost like my body stops breathing and i just freeze, looking at my emails and then I close it. I hate feeling like this - what do I do?
This is new to me. I normally have anxiety but I"m still happy deep down, I still love myself, I still can cheer myself up - but today I can't. I just want to cry, the weight of the world is heavy on my shoulders today. I still love myself and I"m telling myself to listen to my body and slow down, but I have SOOOOO much to do yet i can't manage anything. Everything is a chore. ANxiety is telling me it's a brain tumour .... reality is telling me I have depression ... I don't want either.
I'd prefer to just have my standard nut-bar version of anxiety - I never use to get depressed, this sucks balls really bad, I feel pointless. ( I Know I"m not but this is how I feel) - HELP - what do you do when you feel like this?
Just sleep the day away or go for a walk?
So I've had again a terrible bout of anxiety - worried about having shingles and then weird spots appeared on my body that freaked me out, I thought I had blood poisoning many times, nearly took myself to the hospital, I've taken photos of my small red wound and sent them to my friend whose a Dr who must think I'm crazy, now of course the wounds are almost gone ( which i also thought were spider bites) and the shingles is going and I"m left with a deep dark friend called depression.
I spent all day yesterday in bed watching horrors, I can't smile, my flat mate it talking to me but the whole time I want him to go away. My daughter is with her Dad for a week which couldn't be better timing. I HATE feeling like this.
My business is super busy - I have my own company but I"m failing it, I"m behind, admin is creeping up, tax is over due, GST is over due, emails are not being answered, I go to answer them and then it's almost like my body stops breathing and i just freeze, looking at my emails and then I close it. I hate feeling like this - what do I do?
This is new to me. I normally have anxiety but I"m still happy deep down, I still love myself, I still can cheer myself up - but today I can't. I just want to cry, the weight of the world is heavy on my shoulders today. I still love myself and I"m telling myself to listen to my body and slow down, but I have SOOOOO much to do yet i can't manage anything. Everything is a chore. ANxiety is telling me it's a brain tumour .... reality is telling me I have depression ... I don't want either.
I'd prefer to just have my standard nut-bar version of anxiety - I never use to get depressed, this sucks balls really bad, I feel pointless. ( I Know I"m not but this is how I feel) - HELP - what do you do when you feel like this?
Just sleep the day away or go for a walk?