oxoshannon
01-02-19, 09:27
Hey everyone, gone very much downhill again. More of the same really but it’s all moved around my body, as it does. So let me break down the last few weeks:
- as per my last thread, I was worried about MS but this seems to have calmed down, thankfully. still got pains in my leg at times but trying to ignore it.
- the doctors want me to change my medication from citalopram to fluoexitine so I am slowly weaning off these. been going from 40mg to 30mg everyday for 2 weeks. I think the way I am feeling has a lot to do with this, I feel shakey and sad, my heart is racing and I just don’t feel ‘right’
- in December I had an ultrasound because of pains in my ovaries, thought it was just a cyst but was told the other day that my right ovary is slightly polycystic, although they just didn’t say much else they just sent me off for some bloods. I’m still waiting for those. But I’m feeling very sad about this, worried and scared. My body hurts everywhere I am tense from my head to my toes, I feel dreadful.
I just feel like my body is breaking down on me and that’s it, this is me forever. I feel awful and scared every single day. I don’t want this anymore. I want me back. I miss her. I try my best to be positive but it doesn’t work because there is always something.
Right now I’m sitting at work and my heart is beating just that little bit too fast, my head hurts and I feel sick. Anxiety or something more? I don’t know anymore.
I just need some people to talk to.
- as per my last thread, I was worried about MS but this seems to have calmed down, thankfully. still got pains in my leg at times but trying to ignore it.
- the doctors want me to change my medication from citalopram to fluoexitine so I am slowly weaning off these. been going from 40mg to 30mg everyday for 2 weeks. I think the way I am feeling has a lot to do with this, I feel shakey and sad, my heart is racing and I just don’t feel ‘right’
- in December I had an ultrasound because of pains in my ovaries, thought it was just a cyst but was told the other day that my right ovary is slightly polycystic, although they just didn’t say much else they just sent me off for some bloods. I’m still waiting for those. But I’m feeling very sad about this, worried and scared. My body hurts everywhere I am tense from my head to my toes, I feel dreadful.
I just feel like my body is breaking down on me and that’s it, this is me forever. I feel awful and scared every single day. I don’t want this anymore. I want me back. I miss her. I try my best to be positive but it doesn’t work because there is always something.
Right now I’m sitting at work and my heart is beating just that little bit too fast, my head hurts and I feel sick. Anxiety or something more? I don’t know anymore.
I just need some people to talk to.