beauty
04-09-07, 11:00
Please help,
this has been going on for years now on and off, ive already posted about thid but its becoming worse again.
For years i have obsessed with breathing, im convinced that if i think about it enough, you know the process, i will just not be able to breathe anymore. It absolutley terrifies me!! Nothing has ever actually happened to me though, other than minor panic attacks when i think about it alot. I am just convinced that it will eventually happen and i will just die. I relate it to the swallowing thing, you know when you think about swallowing and then you cant. Ive had this and have been stuck in the swallowing process for a few seconds at a time, which is very scary. And im sure the same will eventually happen with breathing, that i will get stuck in the process and not be able to breathe for a few seconds and then it will gradually get worse.
Ive been having a horrible feeling of dread that this is going to happen soon, and i know if it ever did it would ruin me i wouldnt be able to do anything alone, and would probably end up house-bound at 21!
I feel so alone in it all, like no-one else gets it and at the moment everytime i think about it it is just scaring me so much, im not even able to imagine my future at the moment without thinking 'actually i probably havent got a future'.
It seems impossible to get out of this now,
Any advice would be great,
thanks for reading xxx
this has been going on for years now on and off, ive already posted about thid but its becoming worse again.
For years i have obsessed with breathing, im convinced that if i think about it enough, you know the process, i will just not be able to breathe anymore. It absolutley terrifies me!! Nothing has ever actually happened to me though, other than minor panic attacks when i think about it alot. I am just convinced that it will eventually happen and i will just die. I relate it to the swallowing thing, you know when you think about swallowing and then you cant. Ive had this and have been stuck in the swallowing process for a few seconds at a time, which is very scary. And im sure the same will eventually happen with breathing, that i will get stuck in the process and not be able to breathe for a few seconds and then it will gradually get worse.
Ive been having a horrible feeling of dread that this is going to happen soon, and i know if it ever did it would ruin me i wouldnt be able to do anything alone, and would probably end up house-bound at 21!
I feel so alone in it all, like no-one else gets it and at the moment everytime i think about it it is just scaring me so much, im not even able to imagine my future at the moment without thinking 'actually i probably havent got a future'.
It seems impossible to get out of this now,
Any advice would be great,
thanks for reading xxx