gailveronica
19-02-19, 15:13
...I've had a lot of fears lately. Ever since finding a lump behind my leg (which I thought was sarcoma but turned out to be a lipoma) I've been hyper-aware of my own body. This means that my left thigh that goes numb/pins and needles is on high alert, as well as the left side of my face which also goes numb/pins and needles. I've started to feel it in my left arm and down my left back, too. I haven't been sleeping well, and my left ear feels full.
My doctor did a spinal x-ray and that came back fine (though it showed degenerative disc disease). She said it would not be causing my nerve issues through the left side of my body (although the nurse on the phone with my results told me it would - so... initially I thought I was fine).
Anyhow, my doctor ordered an MRI for tomorrow.
I've had MS scares in the past (lesions on my brain twice now, once at 16 years old and once 5 years ago - but each time they faded/went away) so this isn't new for me - but what is new is the tingling and the fact that I have a palpable lump on my leg (which I know, probably has nothing to do with anything, it's just a lipoma, but I fear brain mets). I'm very scared I have a brain tumor - and it would be a quick growing aggressive one, as I just had my last MRI for vertigo issues in 2016 (3 years ago) and no tumor was seen.
I know I'll know more tomorrow (also, I haaate MRIs and need all the Xanax to make it through that tunnel of death) but I'm so worried. I've been worried for months now, about so many different things... and this time, it feels so real and I can't talk myself down. I'm almost okay with an MS diagnosis (as I've been through the grieving process for that already, twice) but a brain tumor (mainly, glioblastoma) is something I don't think I'll be able to handle. :weep:
My doctor did a spinal x-ray and that came back fine (though it showed degenerative disc disease). She said it would not be causing my nerve issues through the left side of my body (although the nurse on the phone with my results told me it would - so... initially I thought I was fine).
Anyhow, my doctor ordered an MRI for tomorrow.
I've had MS scares in the past (lesions on my brain twice now, once at 16 years old and once 5 years ago - but each time they faded/went away) so this isn't new for me - but what is new is the tingling and the fact that I have a palpable lump on my leg (which I know, probably has nothing to do with anything, it's just a lipoma, but I fear brain mets). I'm very scared I have a brain tumor - and it would be a quick growing aggressive one, as I just had my last MRI for vertigo issues in 2016 (3 years ago) and no tumor was seen.
I know I'll know more tomorrow (also, I haaate MRIs and need all the Xanax to make it through that tunnel of death) but I'm so worried. I've been worried for months now, about so many different things... and this time, it feels so real and I can't talk myself down. I'm almost okay with an MS diagnosis (as I've been through the grieving process for that already, twice) but a brain tumor (mainly, glioblastoma) is something I don't think I'll be able to handle. :weep: