MandyC
08-09-07, 06:55
Hi my name is Mandy. I am (only just, two days ago) 39, married with a ten year old son and work fulltime as a Food Safety Officer for a local authority, a job, which, whilst I do enjoy, find very demanding and incredibly stressful. I am sitting here desperate for some answers but just grateful to find a website which can help solve all my symptoms and questions relating to the horrendous feelings I am currently feeling (at this time in the morning, mind you I have been awake a couple of hours). My problems arise, I think, when I am run-down and tired. I have had a few manic weeks, re work and social events which culminated in a friends wedding yesterday. I got home late and then, because I was overtired and couldn't switch off ( a comman problem I have) I proceeded to watch tv programmes I had taped earlier in the evening. Not the best idea, and I actually realise this at the time but continue to watch and stay awake. Therefore I finally got to sleep at prob half two. I awoke, not sure why at 5ish this morning and then went down the slippery slope of suffering a terrible (worst one for me for sometime) panic attack where I feel like I am suffering a stroke/heart attack and can't breathe. My husband ignores my pleas for help (not his fault as he is soundly asleep and probably thinks I am having a(nother) bad dream!!, where is a paper bag?? We do not possess one and where can you actually get one from these days anyway? These feelings of dread and helplessness, (I am so scared and frantic) seem to last hours and of course now whilst I feel calmer, my body feels like lead and my co-ordination/head is slow and 'un-real', if that makes sense. Not sure why these feelings came on other than I have really pushed myself lately and got over-tired; work is piling up and I am trying to fit in too much into my social (what's that?) diary by over-commitment to family and friends.
Anyway I feel better now and want/need to go back to bed (safe in the knowledge that I am not dying...) but the fear is when will the next attack occur and will I ever be free (these syptoms started about two years ago and I had to take 4 months off work but when I look back the sigms were there probably several years before...)
So glad to have found this website..for me it's a lifeline and reassuring to know that there are lots of other people out there in a similar situation who UNDERSTAND!
Mandy
Anyway I feel better now and want/need to go back to bed (safe in the knowledge that I am not dying...) but the fear is when will the next attack occur and will I ever be free (these syptoms started about two years ago and I had to take 4 months off work but when I look back the sigms were there probably several years before...)
So glad to have found this website..for me it's a lifeline and reassuring to know that there are lots of other people out there in a similar situation who UNDERSTAND!
Mandy