RyanM1994
03-04-19, 15:28
Hi All,
I'm a 24 year old male, currently going through CBT for the second time in 5 years. Around 10 years ago I had an accident on my push bike, I crashed into a recovery truck (Ironic I know), and took a chunk out of my right knee.
At the time, they took an xray and it all looked OK
The past week I have been struggling to cope and feel alone with it all, none of my family understand me or can help me anymore and I'm at a loss.
I have been worrying about different things, however there is one thing I can't get off my mind.
Monday evening, after a particularly bad day, I was driving home when a thought randomly appeared in my head about a popping/clicking sensation I have had for a very long time (over 6 years) in my right knee.
I didn't think much of it again until I got home, ran upstairs in a panic, laid on the bed with my leg up in the air and started bending my knee and opening my knee like a mad man, panicking more and more each time I heard the noises.
I have also, on and off, been pushing and prodding my knee to try and feel where all of the noises come from.
Since then I'm focusing on every little sensation from my knee, and noticed it feel tight and often start to hurt.
I'm convinced I have Arthritis.
Normally my anxiety stops there, I worry, go and see the doc when I can and it goes no further.
The thing that's really sticking with me and breaking my heart (Not ashamed to admit It's actually made me cry), I'm convinced that by the time I have a child I'm going to be wheelchair bound, or not going to be able to be active.
I've always dreamed of having a child and teaching him/her how to play football and ride a bike. And always dream about going on family walks together.
I have visions of my partner leaving me over it all.
I'm struggling to cope so as a last resort, I'm back here again. Sorry :(
I'm a 24 year old male, currently going through CBT for the second time in 5 years. Around 10 years ago I had an accident on my push bike, I crashed into a recovery truck (Ironic I know), and took a chunk out of my right knee.
At the time, they took an xray and it all looked OK
The past week I have been struggling to cope and feel alone with it all, none of my family understand me or can help me anymore and I'm at a loss.
I have been worrying about different things, however there is one thing I can't get off my mind.
Monday evening, after a particularly bad day, I was driving home when a thought randomly appeared in my head about a popping/clicking sensation I have had for a very long time (over 6 years) in my right knee.
I didn't think much of it again until I got home, ran upstairs in a panic, laid on the bed with my leg up in the air and started bending my knee and opening my knee like a mad man, panicking more and more each time I heard the noises.
I have also, on and off, been pushing and prodding my knee to try and feel where all of the noises come from.
Since then I'm focusing on every little sensation from my knee, and noticed it feel tight and often start to hurt.
I'm convinced I have Arthritis.
Normally my anxiety stops there, I worry, go and see the doc when I can and it goes no further.
The thing that's really sticking with me and breaking my heart (Not ashamed to admit It's actually made me cry), I'm convinced that by the time I have a child I'm going to be wheelchair bound, or not going to be able to be active.
I've always dreamed of having a child and teaching him/her how to play football and ride a bike. And always dream about going on family walks together.
I have visions of my partner leaving me over it all.
I'm struggling to cope so as a last resort, I'm back here again. Sorry :(