anxietyg
20-04-19, 18:59
First of all, I need to thank you all for being such a supportive community. God bless you all for being such good people.
I want to share my story with you and then I'm going to tell you what bothers me the most at this moment.
I'm a 29 year old male, pretty healthy in the past, good weight (1.90 m / 92 kg).
Two years ago I went for a random check-up at a clinic because I had some days when I felt dizzy. One time I got out of the bed and I was really off balance. I thought to myself that I should do a check up.
They said my spleen was enlarged and it's a sign of bad news. They gave me a ton of tests to do.
Needles to say that I went through a panic attack right after I exit the door of the clinic. In the day after I was feeling a shortness of breath and I started googling (bad decision) on what an enlarged spleen might be caused by.
This threw me in a circle of emotions and hyperanalization of everything that was happening with my body.
I took all the tests and for a period of several months I was having a feeling of doom. All the tests came back negative. My blood tests were perfectly normal. Then I took a CT scan of the abdominal cavity, colonoscopy, endoscopy, nothing wrong. By the time I took the CT scan my spleen was having the normal size again.
One of the tests revealed that I had toxoplasmosis (i have 4 cats...crazy cat guy I know) and this might be a cause for enlarges spleen.
Besides dizziness, i started to have an ear ringing. Because of the off / on dizziness and ear ringing I went to ENT, all the tests were good except a nasty sinusitis.
The ENT asked for a brain MRI. Took the MRI (no contrast) and it confirmed the sinusitis.
In the meanwhile I started to pay attention to my heart since it felt somehow it was beating weird. Feared of a heart attack and went to a cardiologist for an echography. He found nothing wrong with it. Went for a second opinion to a sports cardiologist and he put a 24hr monitor on me. He called next day and he told me that I have one of the healthiest hearts he ever seen.
In the meantime I started to have body-wide twitches. Every muscle strand of my body was twitching at a time or another. Started googling and every result was directing me to MS or ALS. Needless to say that I had some panic atacks because of this.
At this point several months passed and my dizziness wass an on/off process. I went to the ENT again and he asked for a second MRI (no contrast) and everything looked good with my brain but the sinusitis is still there.
One year passed (to present) I still have the body twitches (some days I cannot feel them, some days muscles get crazy). The ear ringing and racing heart feelings disappeared.
But what bothers me the most are the following symptoms (please bear with me).
1. I feel the entire body tensed.
2. Perceived weakness in the legs, hands. For example sometimes I feelike i cannot type on the phone's screen as fast as I can in a different day. This comes and goes.
3. Knees cracking. I mean, my knees crack everytime I bend my legs. I feel my legs tensed.
4. Slurred speach (this one bothers me the most). I am a fast talker usually. But sometimes I don't pronounce some of the consonant sounds in some words and I get a jolt of panic right away. The thing is that after this if I try to pronounce the same word again, i can do it without any issues.
I might sound stupid but sometimes when I catch myself mispronouncing a word, I go in a room to record myself.
5. I got really tensed shoulders.
6. I got the feeling I'm not walking "right". Like i'm concentrating on my gait.
7. I think (because i cannot evaluate this in an objective way) that my muscles are getting tired more easy than several years ago.
8. I got a feeling that my lower lip / jaw / chin is somehow numb.
Had some blood tests few days ago and besides the cholesterol being high, everything looks alright.
Most of my symptoms now are neurology sphere. I'm wondering if this is anxiety. I so scared of a disorder not discovered yet.
Thank you all, and sorry for the long post. Also, please don't be mad if it's hard to understand, I'm not a native english person.
I want to share my story with you and then I'm going to tell you what bothers me the most at this moment.
I'm a 29 year old male, pretty healthy in the past, good weight (1.90 m / 92 kg).
Two years ago I went for a random check-up at a clinic because I had some days when I felt dizzy. One time I got out of the bed and I was really off balance. I thought to myself that I should do a check up.
They said my spleen was enlarged and it's a sign of bad news. They gave me a ton of tests to do.
Needles to say that I went through a panic attack right after I exit the door of the clinic. In the day after I was feeling a shortness of breath and I started googling (bad decision) on what an enlarged spleen might be caused by.
This threw me in a circle of emotions and hyperanalization of everything that was happening with my body.
I took all the tests and for a period of several months I was having a feeling of doom. All the tests came back negative. My blood tests were perfectly normal. Then I took a CT scan of the abdominal cavity, colonoscopy, endoscopy, nothing wrong. By the time I took the CT scan my spleen was having the normal size again.
One of the tests revealed that I had toxoplasmosis (i have 4 cats...crazy cat guy I know) and this might be a cause for enlarges spleen.
Besides dizziness, i started to have an ear ringing. Because of the off / on dizziness and ear ringing I went to ENT, all the tests were good except a nasty sinusitis.
The ENT asked for a brain MRI. Took the MRI (no contrast) and it confirmed the sinusitis.
In the meanwhile I started to pay attention to my heart since it felt somehow it was beating weird. Feared of a heart attack and went to a cardiologist for an echography. He found nothing wrong with it. Went for a second opinion to a sports cardiologist and he put a 24hr monitor on me. He called next day and he told me that I have one of the healthiest hearts he ever seen.
In the meantime I started to have body-wide twitches. Every muscle strand of my body was twitching at a time or another. Started googling and every result was directing me to MS or ALS. Needless to say that I had some panic atacks because of this.
At this point several months passed and my dizziness wass an on/off process. I went to the ENT again and he asked for a second MRI (no contrast) and everything looked good with my brain but the sinusitis is still there.
One year passed (to present) I still have the body twitches (some days I cannot feel them, some days muscles get crazy). The ear ringing and racing heart feelings disappeared.
But what bothers me the most are the following symptoms (please bear with me).
1. I feel the entire body tensed.
2. Perceived weakness in the legs, hands. For example sometimes I feelike i cannot type on the phone's screen as fast as I can in a different day. This comes and goes.
3. Knees cracking. I mean, my knees crack everytime I bend my legs. I feel my legs tensed.
4. Slurred speach (this one bothers me the most). I am a fast talker usually. But sometimes I don't pronounce some of the consonant sounds in some words and I get a jolt of panic right away. The thing is that after this if I try to pronounce the same word again, i can do it without any issues.
I might sound stupid but sometimes when I catch myself mispronouncing a word, I go in a room to record myself.
5. I got really tensed shoulders.
6. I got the feeling I'm not walking "right". Like i'm concentrating on my gait.
7. I think (because i cannot evaluate this in an objective way) that my muscles are getting tired more easy than several years ago.
8. I got a feeling that my lower lip / jaw / chin is somehow numb.
Had some blood tests few days ago and besides the cholesterol being high, everything looks alright.
Most of my symptoms now are neurology sphere. I'm wondering if this is anxiety. I so scared of a disorder not discovered yet.
Thank you all, and sorry for the long post. Also, please don't be mad if it's hard to understand, I'm not a native english person.