jalapeno1234
29-04-19, 23:43
I have pretty severe emetophobia and so ANY weird sensation in my upper stomach and I freak , my heart will probably go 10x faster than I even realise and I begin chewing my nails and hyperventilating. Amazingly, I havent had a feeling sick moment in a good month, it was onstage as Im a singer and my anxiety plays a HUGE HORRIBLE part in it haha..unfortunately I was blessed with very attentive motor neurones and it truly gets into my guts and my stomach ends up a MESS. I fight the battle every performance as I know what I feel is passion and fire and my brain gets a little confused ...
But anyway, my upper stomach has been amazing lately as Ive been very calm and content but this weekend it was my birthday and though I had fun, the social context was pretty out there for me as I hosted a 3-day celebration as it was my best friends birthday too and we went to restaurants, clubs and more or less stayed in a huge group. The next day I had a little arguement with a friend (we were so tired and a little hungover and hormonal haha so this was why) and during the confrontation my stomach turned a little and I could feel the anxiety in my tummy. We resolved it quite soon after but I couldnt eat without feeling gaggy. I woke up today and have managed to eat lots and feel ok but i made some spicy mexican soup with quite alot of chilli powder (I can usually deal ok with this except for a touch of heartburn after) but about 3 hours after I ate I felt...jumpy in my stomach. I freaked a little as I felt the anxiety stirring and then felt like I needed to use the bathroom (I havent been since saturday so in a way I wasnt too scared) but I havent been thus far. I dont have any acid reflux but my stomach just feels weird...and when I observe it my heart starts racing. Anyone else?
But anyway, my upper stomach has been amazing lately as Ive been very calm and content but this weekend it was my birthday and though I had fun, the social context was pretty out there for me as I hosted a 3-day celebration as it was my best friends birthday too and we went to restaurants, clubs and more or less stayed in a huge group. The next day I had a little arguement with a friend (we were so tired and a little hungover and hormonal haha so this was why) and during the confrontation my stomach turned a little and I could feel the anxiety in my tummy. We resolved it quite soon after but I couldnt eat without feeling gaggy. I woke up today and have managed to eat lots and feel ok but i made some spicy mexican soup with quite alot of chilli powder (I can usually deal ok with this except for a touch of heartburn after) but about 3 hours after I ate I felt...jumpy in my stomach. I freaked a little as I felt the anxiety stirring and then felt like I needed to use the bathroom (I havent been since saturday so in a way I wasnt too scared) but I havent been thus far. I dont have any acid reflux but my stomach just feels weird...and when I observe it my heart starts racing. Anyone else?