Winter72
30-04-19, 10:28
Hi All
I'm new here so I do apologise if this has been covered elsewhere. I'm reaching the end of my tether with what I think might be ROCD. I just can't keep a relationship going past the first few weeks/months before I pick up on a flaw about the other person and just run with it until the only option is to break up the relationship to end the suffering. This could be anything about the other persons appearance...mainly seems to focus on eyes particularly eye disorders such as pinguecula (yellow bits in white of eye). I've also had it with eyebrows, spots on face or similar blemishes.
I've met someone I really like and we are planning to move in together. I currently spend my life comparing her to other people - not just other girls - anyone, young old, male/female and freaking out when their eyes are free from blemishes. I struggle to watch TV, or read magazines, hang out with friends . The panic is completely debilitating and knocks me for six as if someone has punched me in the stomach. I'm constantly 'testing' the relationship - do i really like her? Have I just made up all the attraction? Am I better without her?
I just don't know where to turn. I've read a bit about it online and it does seem to be a thing people suffer from. In the past I've had health anxiety and social anxiety but they seem to have cleared to be replaced by this. I've talked to various therapists and counsellors and no-one seems to know what I'm talking about.
Does anyone have any experience of this and where I can go for help specifically for this type of anxiety?
thank you
Richard
I'm new here so I do apologise if this has been covered elsewhere. I'm reaching the end of my tether with what I think might be ROCD. I just can't keep a relationship going past the first few weeks/months before I pick up on a flaw about the other person and just run with it until the only option is to break up the relationship to end the suffering. This could be anything about the other persons appearance...mainly seems to focus on eyes particularly eye disorders such as pinguecula (yellow bits in white of eye). I've also had it with eyebrows, spots on face or similar blemishes.
I've met someone I really like and we are planning to move in together. I currently spend my life comparing her to other people - not just other girls - anyone, young old, male/female and freaking out when their eyes are free from blemishes. I struggle to watch TV, or read magazines, hang out with friends . The panic is completely debilitating and knocks me for six as if someone has punched me in the stomach. I'm constantly 'testing' the relationship - do i really like her? Have I just made up all the attraction? Am I better without her?
I just don't know where to turn. I've read a bit about it online and it does seem to be a thing people suffer from. In the past I've had health anxiety and social anxiety but they seem to have cleared to be replaced by this. I've talked to various therapists and counsellors and no-one seems to know what I'm talking about.
Does anyone have any experience of this and where I can go for help specifically for this type of anxiety?
thank you
Richard