TikPandora
02-05-19, 06:36
Well, this has been a terrible week...for quite a number of reasons.
First it started out with me finding out that I have to have quite a lot of dental work done. Cavities, probably an extraction and maybe even a root canal. Or course I was worried about this, but it's super easy for me to calm those specific fears as my teeth are something I can see...something that I can personally examine without much effort. I'm not excited about the financial aspect of getting everything fixed, but that's not what this thread is about.
I think the teeth were a gateway worry for bigger, even nastier anxieties. While I was at work, I realized that one of my eyes has an easier time sharply focusing in on things like the text on my phone, alongside some new eye floaters that popped up in the last few months. Immediately I snapped into full panic mode thinking that I was going blind or that my diabetes had finally caught up with my most precious sense.
Then I started immediately worrying about my hearing. Just like my vision I've never had any problems with it before. One ear seems slightly muffled in comparison to the other and this makes me worry about losing both my hearing and my vision. Even though they may seem like small complaints, my mind immediately assumes the worst.
I even worried that all of these things could be symptoms of a brain tumor but I don't want to go into the details on that...as this thread is more about eyes and ears and less about my old demons.
I've pretty much fully convinced myself that I'm going both blind and deaf, and I don't know what to do. I am making an appointment with the eye doctor tomorrow (especially since I need to get looked over anyway with me being a Type II diabetic.) What should I do? These worries have made life terrible these past few days. Work is almost impossible as well. I'd really like some opinions on what to do next so I can get out of this depressing funk.
First it started out with me finding out that I have to have quite a lot of dental work done. Cavities, probably an extraction and maybe even a root canal. Or course I was worried about this, but it's super easy for me to calm those specific fears as my teeth are something I can see...something that I can personally examine without much effort. I'm not excited about the financial aspect of getting everything fixed, but that's not what this thread is about.
I think the teeth were a gateway worry for bigger, even nastier anxieties. While I was at work, I realized that one of my eyes has an easier time sharply focusing in on things like the text on my phone, alongside some new eye floaters that popped up in the last few months. Immediately I snapped into full panic mode thinking that I was going blind or that my diabetes had finally caught up with my most precious sense.
Then I started immediately worrying about my hearing. Just like my vision I've never had any problems with it before. One ear seems slightly muffled in comparison to the other and this makes me worry about losing both my hearing and my vision. Even though they may seem like small complaints, my mind immediately assumes the worst.
I even worried that all of these things could be symptoms of a brain tumor but I don't want to go into the details on that...as this thread is more about eyes and ears and less about my old demons.
I've pretty much fully convinced myself that I'm going both blind and deaf, and I don't know what to do. I am making an appointment with the eye doctor tomorrow (especially since I need to get looked over anyway with me being a Type II diabetic.) What should I do? These worries have made life terrible these past few days. Work is almost impossible as well. I'd really like some opinions on what to do next so I can get out of this depressing funk.