Bubbletea
02-05-19, 10:01
I haven't really told anyone about my current situation regarding my worsening health anxiety, but people from NMP please do hear me out (and sorry if my english isn't that great):
So if anyone has noticed over my past threads: I have been suffering from terrible hyopochondria, specifically rabies, for almost a year now and it has taken a toll on my mental and physical health. The fear was really something, because I began having false memories and trust issues ever since my HA worsen just this year.
Whenever I would go out, I would always look for stray dogs/cats and even bats cuz I really wanna be cautious and try my best to not get near them. However whenever I feel an unknown brush or sensation from something/someone, I'd automatically assume that a stray animal brushed past against or licked me, and I'd start freaking out that "what if I have a super tiny wound on my hand/leg/whatever you name it and the saliva got in it"... I also tend to have false memories and I'd think that famous question: "what if..?"
We also have an unvaccinated dog at home and she really likes to playfully bite people. I know she should be vaccinated already, but money is scarce for us at the moment because of family matters. So whenever I would go out of the house, I'd run away from our dog because she really likes to nip and bite, and whenever I do get bit or licked.. I have the tendency to vigorously wash the area everytime (which I think is OCD based from what I found from the net).
The reason why I also developed trust issues was how whenever I will eat food, or was offered food by another person, I often refuse and if I did ate the food, I'd get worried that "what if a stray animal licked or drooled on the food and the person who offered me the food didn't know and I accidentally ate it without knowing as well?".
I know my hypochondria has reached a terrible level, so I hope anyone can help me give advice or tips on how to overcome or cope this anxiety of mine. I really sound silly right now, but I wish being a hypochondriac was a silly and non-sensical matter as well (which is not btw).
So if anyone has noticed over my past threads: I have been suffering from terrible hyopochondria, specifically rabies, for almost a year now and it has taken a toll on my mental and physical health. The fear was really something, because I began having false memories and trust issues ever since my HA worsen just this year.
Whenever I would go out, I would always look for stray dogs/cats and even bats cuz I really wanna be cautious and try my best to not get near them. However whenever I feel an unknown brush or sensation from something/someone, I'd automatically assume that a stray animal brushed past against or licked me, and I'd start freaking out that "what if I have a super tiny wound on my hand/leg/whatever you name it and the saliva got in it"... I also tend to have false memories and I'd think that famous question: "what if..?"
We also have an unvaccinated dog at home and she really likes to playfully bite people. I know she should be vaccinated already, but money is scarce for us at the moment because of family matters. So whenever I would go out of the house, I'd run away from our dog because she really likes to nip and bite, and whenever I do get bit or licked.. I have the tendency to vigorously wash the area everytime (which I think is OCD based from what I found from the net).
The reason why I also developed trust issues was how whenever I will eat food, or was offered food by another person, I often refuse and if I did ate the food, I'd get worried that "what if a stray animal licked or drooled on the food and the person who offered me the food didn't know and I accidentally ate it without knowing as well?".
I know my hypochondria has reached a terrible level, so I hope anyone can help me give advice or tips on how to overcome or cope this anxiety of mine. I really sound silly right now, but I wish being a hypochondriac was a silly and non-sensical matter as well (which is not btw).