animeman
12-09-07, 07:44
I'd first like to say I'm new these forums but I was looking up on nervous breakdowns and after one or twio links it lead me here. so I figured I'd tell my story and see if I can get some advise
I've recently starteda new job after being unemployed for the better part of two years its with a place I've worked with before on a part time basis so I decided to try my hand at full time factory work.
the problem started on monday of this week. I was tired of the eight shifts and decided to slide(I was planning on making official at the end of the week) out early. one of the supervisors caught me out and made me stay the extra four hours which I spent very annoyed and frustrated my daring escape plan had failed so much so I actually started crying half an hour before my shift finished and had to explain to them I was upset becuase I was being made to stay longer and that I wasn't used to the hours and that I'm just generally a lazy person.
I was made to work another eight hours yesterday which I did still rather frustrated and depressed I had to stay till ten.and when I got home I had some tea but was still starving but oddily not particularly wanting to eat. and I spent the whole night restless with shakey arms and legs and basically crawling up the wall trying to decided what to do the next day.
I think its becuase I spent most of the day doing lifting work my body can't seem to unwind to let me sleep and that coupled with the fact I really don't want to be staying after six is driving me crazy.
I spoke to my supervisor and asked to put me onto part time hours which she basically refused to do. she knows me from the last time I worked and I had to face all sorts of questions and felt like I need a really good excuse when it basically boils down to me just wanting a little time to relax after work so I can sleep.
I'm also an aspergers so not getting my own way is kindof stressful for me.
at the moment its crunch time if I go in to work this afternoon which is driving me up the wall I have to sign off my jobseekers allowance and if I don't I face lectures galore from my parents and even more from our neighbour and close friend. I don't know whether I should carry on has I am and wait to see if I adapt or just call it quits and wait for something better to come along.
right now I'm leaning heavily towards the latter
I've recently starteda new job after being unemployed for the better part of two years its with a place I've worked with before on a part time basis so I decided to try my hand at full time factory work.
the problem started on monday of this week. I was tired of the eight shifts and decided to slide(I was planning on making official at the end of the week) out early. one of the supervisors caught me out and made me stay the extra four hours which I spent very annoyed and frustrated my daring escape plan had failed so much so I actually started crying half an hour before my shift finished and had to explain to them I was upset becuase I was being made to stay longer and that I wasn't used to the hours and that I'm just generally a lazy person.
I was made to work another eight hours yesterday which I did still rather frustrated and depressed I had to stay till ten.and when I got home I had some tea but was still starving but oddily not particularly wanting to eat. and I spent the whole night restless with shakey arms and legs and basically crawling up the wall trying to decided what to do the next day.
I think its becuase I spent most of the day doing lifting work my body can't seem to unwind to let me sleep and that coupled with the fact I really don't want to be staying after six is driving me crazy.
I spoke to my supervisor and asked to put me onto part time hours which she basically refused to do. she knows me from the last time I worked and I had to face all sorts of questions and felt like I need a really good excuse when it basically boils down to me just wanting a little time to relax after work so I can sleep.
I'm also an aspergers so not getting my own way is kindof stressful for me.
at the moment its crunch time if I go in to work this afternoon which is driving me up the wall I have to sign off my jobseekers allowance and if I don't I face lectures galore from my parents and even more from our neighbour and close friend. I don't know whether I should carry on has I am and wait to see if I adapt or just call it quits and wait for something better to come along.
right now I'm leaning heavily towards the latter