Stressed32
11-05-19, 23:41
Hello. I have suffered off and on for 13 years w HA. I have made good strides in recognizing triggers and not body checking or googling symptoms. For the most part, I have basically come to understand the condition, and I accept the feelings and just allow them to pass over me rather than giving them my attention. I have been doing fairly well.
Well I brought my daughter to a dentist last week because she has swollen tonsils (no infection) and this lady specializes in breathing therapy (daughter is a mouth breather causing tonsils to swell). The dentist mentioned to me doing a 3D scan of the tonsils bc she has a lazer to help shrink them before we begin therapy. I was excited. Well when they went to do the test- the machine looked a lot like a CT scan machine but she was sitting up. When I asked if it was a CT (being concerned w radiation of that on my 8 year old's brain) the lady responded that it was to measure her airway and that they can detect all kinds of things like cancer....
Well- immediately enter in HA!! I mean she said the C word w diagnostic work up w my daughter! I freaked!! I calmly asked her what she meant and she said they look everyone over for oral cancer- ok- I got a little calmer bc then she said my daughter was fine. I asked- so this is not any kind of test where you all will call me in a week and tell me something came back concerning? She showed me the scan and said no- BUT what she showed was just of the frontal of the face and did not include the airway at all- and told me they would make lots of 2D images that would make a video of the airway. They had not done that at that moment- so she really could not say that everything was normal.
We left, I left shook up bc while I understand my daughter did not have oral cancer, I started to worry that they may find throat cancer when they measure that airway.
I called the next day and specifically asked the lady if I needed to worry about cancer being seen in my daughter's throat since no one had looked at that image yet and she said no....but HA asks why- they did not look at that yet right??? UGH- here comes the spiral.......
I know this is not logical. She is 8 and this kind of cancer is extremely rare for a child her age- but it is not impossible! I have spent the last day reading about the CBCT test and it is not specific for seeing cancer, but it can see tumors of the throat and jaw.
Guys- how can I talk myself down from this? I so desprately want to enjoy Mother's Day tomorrow- we tried for 13 years for kids- I love Mother's Day but this dentist is not getting me a treatment plan until Tuesday and frankly I am not sure if I can do this for 3 more days!! I am actually considering calling her right now at 6:00 on a Sat night!
I know that none of you can tell me my kid does not have throat cancer- I am not asking for that. I am asking how can I shut the repeat record of fear and cancer thoughts off that is playing in my head over and over and over again? I have tried distraction- it is not working.
Well I brought my daughter to a dentist last week because she has swollen tonsils (no infection) and this lady specializes in breathing therapy (daughter is a mouth breather causing tonsils to swell). The dentist mentioned to me doing a 3D scan of the tonsils bc she has a lazer to help shrink them before we begin therapy. I was excited. Well when they went to do the test- the machine looked a lot like a CT scan machine but she was sitting up. When I asked if it was a CT (being concerned w radiation of that on my 8 year old's brain) the lady responded that it was to measure her airway and that they can detect all kinds of things like cancer....
Well- immediately enter in HA!! I mean she said the C word w diagnostic work up w my daughter! I freaked!! I calmly asked her what she meant and she said they look everyone over for oral cancer- ok- I got a little calmer bc then she said my daughter was fine. I asked- so this is not any kind of test where you all will call me in a week and tell me something came back concerning? She showed me the scan and said no- BUT what she showed was just of the frontal of the face and did not include the airway at all- and told me they would make lots of 2D images that would make a video of the airway. They had not done that at that moment- so she really could not say that everything was normal.
We left, I left shook up bc while I understand my daughter did not have oral cancer, I started to worry that they may find throat cancer when they measure that airway.
I called the next day and specifically asked the lady if I needed to worry about cancer being seen in my daughter's throat since no one had looked at that image yet and she said no....but HA asks why- they did not look at that yet right??? UGH- here comes the spiral.......
I know this is not logical. She is 8 and this kind of cancer is extremely rare for a child her age- but it is not impossible! I have spent the last day reading about the CBCT test and it is not specific for seeing cancer, but it can see tumors of the throat and jaw.
Guys- how can I talk myself down from this? I so desprately want to enjoy Mother's Day tomorrow- we tried for 13 years for kids- I love Mother's Day but this dentist is not getting me a treatment plan until Tuesday and frankly I am not sure if I can do this for 3 more days!! I am actually considering calling her right now at 6:00 on a Sat night!
I know that none of you can tell me my kid does not have throat cancer- I am not asking for that. I am asking how can I shut the repeat record of fear and cancer thoughts off that is playing in my head over and over and over again? I have tried distraction- it is not working.