Miffy
13-09-07, 15:44
Hi there,
i have had OCD since i was a kid but since i broke up with my ex i cant control the thoughts about what she is doing on a fri night and a sat night, if she is done up out clubbing and i force myself to go out every weekend night to keep my mind away from it, i check the number plates of cars as i go by them to check its not her - i panic and wont use facebook cuz of her and i cant let myself think about her otherwise i get a major panic attack and 2 weeks ago i heated up my car cig lighter that you push in and car bat heats it - and burnt my arm with it - i really wanna just relax and not care what she is doing or imagine she is out or having things like 3 somes with people, i feel so sick just writing this and the only thing that stopped me doing this again about an hour ago was i didnt have my car keys on my to switch on the ignition, had thoughts recently about pouring lighter fluid on my arm and setting it alight, im so scared this wont ever go away...please anyone help, thanks. Matthew
i have had OCD since i was a kid but since i broke up with my ex i cant control the thoughts about what she is doing on a fri night and a sat night, if she is done up out clubbing and i force myself to go out every weekend night to keep my mind away from it, i check the number plates of cars as i go by them to check its not her - i panic and wont use facebook cuz of her and i cant let myself think about her otherwise i get a major panic attack and 2 weeks ago i heated up my car cig lighter that you push in and car bat heats it - and burnt my arm with it - i really wanna just relax and not care what she is doing or imagine she is out or having things like 3 somes with people, i feel so sick just writing this and the only thing that stopped me doing this again about an hour ago was i didnt have my car keys on my to switch on the ignition, had thoughts recently about pouring lighter fluid on my arm and setting it alight, im so scared this wont ever go away...please anyone help, thanks. Matthew