nick1994
27-05-19, 17:31
Hi all,
My name is Nick. I'm 25 years old.
I'm an Australian who has battled anxiety since I was about 16, but I've been battling an awful wave of it for the last year or so. I decided to pack up and relocate to England with my girlfriend to challenge myself after two or three years of solid mental health last May. This was the worst possible decision for my mental health.
I've developed an awful fear of many things and my anxiety is bordering on slipping into full blown panic disorder. I think my anxiety stems from my father's premature death (he had a heart condition). Since he passed (in Jan 2016) I've had an irrational fear of heart-related illness. I'm a type one diabetic as well and have always been taught to be conscious of my body and how I'm feeling - which is necessary but an absolute evil as I notice every nook and cranny. This contributes massively to health anxiety. I'm seeking therapy but in the UK, it's difficult to find and is certainly not a cheap exercise.
I love my girlfriend so much and I don't want to alienate her with my irrational fears and worries. I know they're stupid but they control my life.
I've also developed a massive fear of being trapped in enclosed spaces. I've overcome a lot of this and have made progress, however, the thought of flying still frightens me to death. I think I want to come home to Australia, however I don't know if I can make the long journey trapped on a plane. I'm not scared of flying in a plane - I know it will land safely - it's being trapped and not being able to call an ambulance or get medical help if something happens to me. That scares me
Trying to fight this off but my god it's tiring.
Thanks for reading xo
My name is Nick. I'm 25 years old.
I'm an Australian who has battled anxiety since I was about 16, but I've been battling an awful wave of it for the last year or so. I decided to pack up and relocate to England with my girlfriend to challenge myself after two or three years of solid mental health last May. This was the worst possible decision for my mental health.
I've developed an awful fear of many things and my anxiety is bordering on slipping into full blown panic disorder. I think my anxiety stems from my father's premature death (he had a heart condition). Since he passed (in Jan 2016) I've had an irrational fear of heart-related illness. I'm a type one diabetic as well and have always been taught to be conscious of my body and how I'm feeling - which is necessary but an absolute evil as I notice every nook and cranny. This contributes massively to health anxiety. I'm seeking therapy but in the UK, it's difficult to find and is certainly not a cheap exercise.
I love my girlfriend so much and I don't want to alienate her with my irrational fears and worries. I know they're stupid but they control my life.
I've also developed a massive fear of being trapped in enclosed spaces. I've overcome a lot of this and have made progress, however, the thought of flying still frightens me to death. I think I want to come home to Australia, however I don't know if I can make the long journey trapped on a plane. I'm not scared of flying in a plane - I know it will land safely - it's being trapped and not being able to call an ambulance or get medical help if something happens to me. That scares me
Trying to fight this off but my god it's tiring.
Thanks for reading xo