Lilmissanxiety
29-05-19, 21:28
Hi, so I've been off work for over 7 years, (I used to post on here many years ago but forgot username/pass) basically my parents have paid my phone and food, I now have got a job, I'm getting old and if I don't do something now, I never will get better, plus not entitled to benefits, it's only 2 hours work, so not like I'll be away from home for ages. I haven't been able to go any places on my own. The symptoms I get are mainly my stomach, it churns really bad and I have to try not to poop myself, 😆. I have read lots of my self help anxiety books, told myself the positives of working, money of course 😁. Not earned in so many years and I wanna buy so much. Plus 2 hours will go quick. Yet my anxiety is like nope, you're gonna have a breakdown. That's all the thoughts I get, even after thinking positive. I know it might happen as nearly did at interview which my mum came with, but I held it together. This time I'll be without her and people will help me if needed. Bonus - be no work in school holidays.
I've told myself all these years that I'm unfit to work cos I can't do stuff alone, yet I am physically capable of working as I've done it before, maybe my anxiety is making me lazy as so used to staying home. Although I can only do part time cos of anxiety and other health issues.
I really wanna do this job. How can I stop my anxiety and from having any breakdowns? Breakdowns as in get so anxious, I start panicking and then crying, which is embarrassing, it's happened a few times when not able to avoid things.
I'm excited about earning a living, but it's a big step especially as I can't even go shopping alone. I also suffer from depression and I get worse thinking I can't do anything.
I'm going in this week to get used to it.
I'm on no meds as they didn't work.
I've told myself all these years that I'm unfit to work cos I can't do stuff alone, yet I am physically capable of working as I've done it before, maybe my anxiety is making me lazy as so used to staying home. Although I can only do part time cos of anxiety and other health issues.
I really wanna do this job. How can I stop my anxiety and from having any breakdowns? Breakdowns as in get so anxious, I start panicking and then crying, which is embarrassing, it's happened a few times when not able to avoid things.
I'm excited about earning a living, but it's a big step especially as I can't even go shopping alone. I also suffer from depression and I get worse thinking I can't do anything.
I'm going in this week to get used to it.
I'm on no meds as they didn't work.