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05-06-19, 03:33
Forgetting whole conversations-dementia? Alzheimers?
Hi, friends,
I have posted previously, but apparently so long ago that I've forgotten the email I used and password. At any rate....
I have been diagnosed with OCD and have been dealing with health anxiety for a long time. I have been better with a few relapses into Googling symptoms now and then but rarely.
For the last several months, however, I've been gripped by the fear of early onset Alzheimers or some other kind of dementia.
As background, my mom was diagnosed with a benign brain tumor after some worrying symptoms. She is fine now, and it was benign! Of course, my anxiety brain is now convinced that there is something wrong with ME, only naturally I think it's Alzheimers or dementia instead of something benign and treatable.
I know this is likely a good indicator that I'm dealing with anxiety, but some of my symptoms are really alarming
-When my mom was in surgery I asked my sister if my mom's new boyfriend (we were out to dinner) has children. An hour later I asked her the exact same thing! Even she remarked on it.
-Today I went to look for a basket of laundry. It was upstairs. I have NO memory of carrying it upstairs.
-My husband came home from work today and told me we had had a conversation about getting my son to a haircut today. I have NO memory of this conversation at all.
-I teach with another teacher in the room, and she will often ask me to do something and then have to remind me because I've gotten distracted by the students.
My husband feels that I'm distracted generally-I am on the computer or fb or something practically 24/7. I guess that could be part of it. I also know my mom's condition may have triggered something for me. I guess what has me panicking is that I have zero memory of these events. It's not like, "Oh, yeah, I forgot that....." It's like as far as my brain concerned they just never happened. I have sat and sat trying to recall even some bit of them-like the haircut conversation-and I just can't.
Anyway, that's it. I will probably call my doctor next week if it persists, but I'm really in a bit of a state at the moment. Terrified I'm losing my mind and frustrated that I might have health anxiety again.
Oh, and I'm 47, if that matters. We have two teenagers, and yes, loads of stress. lol
Thanks for reading.
Hi, friends,
I have posted previously, but apparently so long ago that I've forgotten the email I used and password. At any rate....
I have been diagnosed with OCD and have been dealing with health anxiety for a long time. I have been better with a few relapses into Googling symptoms now and then but rarely.
For the last several months, however, I've been gripped by the fear of early onset Alzheimers or some other kind of dementia.
As background, my mom was diagnosed with a benign brain tumor after some worrying symptoms. She is fine now, and it was benign! Of course, my anxiety brain is now convinced that there is something wrong with ME, only naturally I think it's Alzheimers or dementia instead of something benign and treatable.
I know this is likely a good indicator that I'm dealing with anxiety, but some of my symptoms are really alarming
-When my mom was in surgery I asked my sister if my mom's new boyfriend (we were out to dinner) has children. An hour later I asked her the exact same thing! Even she remarked on it.
-Today I went to look for a basket of laundry. It was upstairs. I have NO memory of carrying it upstairs.
-My husband came home from work today and told me we had had a conversation about getting my son to a haircut today. I have NO memory of this conversation at all.
-I teach with another teacher in the room, and she will often ask me to do something and then have to remind me because I've gotten distracted by the students.
My husband feels that I'm distracted generally-I am on the computer or fb or something practically 24/7. I guess that could be part of it. I also know my mom's condition may have triggered something for me. I guess what has me panicking is that I have zero memory of these events. It's not like, "Oh, yeah, I forgot that....." It's like as far as my brain concerned they just never happened. I have sat and sat trying to recall even some bit of them-like the haircut conversation-and I just can't.
Anyway, that's it. I will probably call my doctor next week if it persists, but I'm really in a bit of a state at the moment. Terrified I'm losing my mind and frustrated that I might have health anxiety again.
Oh, and I'm 47, if that matters. We have two teenagers, and yes, loads of stress. lol
Thanks for reading.