Steviewoodman
08-06-19, 19:56
Hello to everyone,
I don't really know what to say or what questions to ask. But I need some help.
I suffer from what I assume is health anxiety and on top of that, I'm worried its tipping over into depression.
On paper, I have everything I want. I have money in the bank. I have a partner I love and who loves and understands me. I have a daughter who idolises me. I have a job I love and is very rewarding. I don't actually think I want anything else in my life.
But I never feel happy. I know I'm not appreciating what I've got.
I'm always mentally preoccupied with how I'm feeling. I think I have IBS so I get stomach and side pains and cramps a lot, along with inconsistent toilet habits. That makes me feel tired and worried it could be something more serious, like bowel or stomach cancer.
I get out of breath quickly, I can feel my heart beating a lot, it feels like it thuds. In the recent hot weather, I felt like I was getting dizzy a lot. I'm worried I've got some heart condition.
Whenever I hear of healthy people, like footballers, having heart problems, it puts me in a withdrawn, thoughtful, worried mood all day.
I worry about dying almost constantly. I worry about the impact on my partner and daughter.
I'm too occupied with thinking about stuff like that to enjoy my life. I really struggle to divert my thinking, and even when I do, it's just sat there waiting for me.
I don't think I'm depressed just yet. I don't necessarily feel sad all the time, I'm just very aware I don't feel happy either.
I've tried CBT, Mindfulness and Meditation. I try Rescue Remedy sometimes. I've started exercising (which is difficult because it makes me more aware of my heart) and eating better. No noticeable difference so far.
I'm worried about revisiting my doctor because I don't want to start taking medication. I'm worried that might make things worse or I'll become dependent on them.
I don't know how to free my mind, stop worrying and enjoy my life. In my head, I can't get over the questions of "if a footballer had a heart attack, why won't you?"
Does anyone have any advice for me?
I don't really know what to say or what questions to ask. But I need some help.
I suffer from what I assume is health anxiety and on top of that, I'm worried its tipping over into depression.
On paper, I have everything I want. I have money in the bank. I have a partner I love and who loves and understands me. I have a daughter who idolises me. I have a job I love and is very rewarding. I don't actually think I want anything else in my life.
But I never feel happy. I know I'm not appreciating what I've got.
I'm always mentally preoccupied with how I'm feeling. I think I have IBS so I get stomach and side pains and cramps a lot, along with inconsistent toilet habits. That makes me feel tired and worried it could be something more serious, like bowel or stomach cancer.
I get out of breath quickly, I can feel my heart beating a lot, it feels like it thuds. In the recent hot weather, I felt like I was getting dizzy a lot. I'm worried I've got some heart condition.
Whenever I hear of healthy people, like footballers, having heart problems, it puts me in a withdrawn, thoughtful, worried mood all day.
I worry about dying almost constantly. I worry about the impact on my partner and daughter.
I'm too occupied with thinking about stuff like that to enjoy my life. I really struggle to divert my thinking, and even when I do, it's just sat there waiting for me.
I don't think I'm depressed just yet. I don't necessarily feel sad all the time, I'm just very aware I don't feel happy either.
I've tried CBT, Mindfulness and Meditation. I try Rescue Remedy sometimes. I've started exercising (which is difficult because it makes me more aware of my heart) and eating better. No noticeable difference so far.
I'm worried about revisiting my doctor because I don't want to start taking medication. I'm worried that might make things worse or I'll become dependent on them.
I don't know how to free my mind, stop worrying and enjoy my life. In my head, I can't get over the questions of "if a footballer had a heart attack, why won't you?"
Does anyone have any advice for me?