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22-07-19, 22:11
Hi, friends,
I apologize for posting a new thread so soon after my last one, and mods. can merge if need be, but I'm sort of in a desperate state.
Short version: I am 48, and I am truly terrified I have early Alzheimers or some other kind of dementia. Every day I am experiencing some sort of forgetfulness, and by themselves they seem minor, but together they seem very alarming.
Yesterday I got through the whole day without an, "Episode," but just now my son came in from walking the dog, and I had completely forgotten he was out with him! As soon as I saw him, I remembered that he had said he was going to walk him and put his collar on him and everything, but after that I had gone and taken a shower, and when I came downstairs, I had completely forgotten he had gone. I thought he was out in the backyard. I'm sitting here thinking about what would have happened if he had gone missing or something, and I wouldn't have been able to tell the police where he'd gone! I know that sound ridiculous (does it?).
I know everyone has things from time to time, but I feel like this is happening to me so often, and I can't figure out if I'm over attending to normal things, or if this is really something to be alarmed about. I have had health anxiety and anxiety and OCD for most of my life, and I have mostly gotten over assessing my physical symptoms and worrying about cancer and so on, but I do not know how to get over this. It seems impossible right now.
I am on some kind of technology and generally distracted all the time, which is what my husband thinks it's all about. I just don't know. How do you get your brain to stop thinking about what's going on in your brain? lol.....And I do know the exact thing that triggered all this which was my mom's surgery for a brain tumor back in April. Naturally, I can't think I have a curable, benign condition, though, it has to be the worst scenario for me!
Thanks for letting me get that all out. I know my husband won't be able to take it if I message him. If anyone has advice on how to get out of this loop, I would surely appreciate it.
I apologize for posting a new thread so soon after my last one, and mods. can merge if need be, but I'm sort of in a desperate state.
Short version: I am 48, and I am truly terrified I have early Alzheimers or some other kind of dementia. Every day I am experiencing some sort of forgetfulness, and by themselves they seem minor, but together they seem very alarming.
Yesterday I got through the whole day without an, "Episode," but just now my son came in from walking the dog, and I had completely forgotten he was out with him! As soon as I saw him, I remembered that he had said he was going to walk him and put his collar on him and everything, but after that I had gone and taken a shower, and when I came downstairs, I had completely forgotten he had gone. I thought he was out in the backyard. I'm sitting here thinking about what would have happened if he had gone missing or something, and I wouldn't have been able to tell the police where he'd gone! I know that sound ridiculous (does it?).
I know everyone has things from time to time, but I feel like this is happening to me so often, and I can't figure out if I'm over attending to normal things, or if this is really something to be alarmed about. I have had health anxiety and anxiety and OCD for most of my life, and I have mostly gotten over assessing my physical symptoms and worrying about cancer and so on, but I do not know how to get over this. It seems impossible right now.
I am on some kind of technology and generally distracted all the time, which is what my husband thinks it's all about. I just don't know. How do you get your brain to stop thinking about what's going on in your brain? lol.....And I do know the exact thing that triggered all this which was my mom's surgery for a brain tumor back in April. Naturally, I can't think I have a curable, benign condition, though, it has to be the worst scenario for me!
Thanks for letting me get that all out. I know my husband won't be able to take it if I message him. If anyone has advice on how to get out of this loop, I would surely appreciate it.