jalapeno1234
27-07-19, 09:00
For many a year I used to bite my nails, probably from the age of ten when I'd feel on edge. My mum believes it to be cos my best friend at the time did it as a stress reliever and so she always held a grudge over the friend (which I think is unfair). I'm 26 now and dip in and out of SEVERE health anxiety, particularly gastrological anxiety due to emetophobia and bad IBS in the last few years. I had a pretty nasty time this year from May-now where I got a terrible TERRIBLE flare up due to a skin medication and was basically floored for weeks on end. I believe its getting better, I am now having more or less normal stools due to an ammendment in my diet but Im still on edge most of the time as my stomach plays some horrible games. Thankfully during this period my emetophobia has been zero as I havent felt sick or had any upper stomach issues, just lower.
What I HAVE noticed though is that my nails/surrounding areas are HORRIFIC. When I was going through these IBS cramps (if it IS IBS...i had numerous tests done and in true fashion the docs put it down to this vague hell) I would chew, bite, even sometimes gnaw for hours on my skin....this is ironically how I got the infection which I had to take the medication which destroyed my gut (talk about deluded). I still do this gross habit as it brings me an unconventional sense of "relief". I never used to understand people who self harmed but my gosh, in the physical sense, it truly does help with my anxiety which flares if my stomach hurts. I have managed to eat pretty much normally all week for the first time in ages and Im still doing this compulsive chewing cos Im scared of how my stomach will be all day. Granted, if I was nauseous, Id have no fingers left - thankfully the meds didnt affect ANY of my stomach until food gets to my colon (sorry TMI!).
Anyone else do this ?
What I HAVE noticed though is that my nails/surrounding areas are HORRIFIC. When I was going through these IBS cramps (if it IS IBS...i had numerous tests done and in true fashion the docs put it down to this vague hell) I would chew, bite, even sometimes gnaw for hours on my skin....this is ironically how I got the infection which I had to take the medication which destroyed my gut (talk about deluded). I still do this gross habit as it brings me an unconventional sense of "relief". I never used to understand people who self harmed but my gosh, in the physical sense, it truly does help with my anxiety which flares if my stomach hurts. I have managed to eat pretty much normally all week for the first time in ages and Im still doing this compulsive chewing cos Im scared of how my stomach will be all day. Granted, if I was nauseous, Id have no fingers left - thankfully the meds didnt affect ANY of my stomach until food gets to my colon (sorry TMI!).
Anyone else do this ?