lanerbanana
05-08-19, 02:28
hello everyone!!! it's me again, back with yet another HA fixation-are you all ready for this????
brain eating amoebas!!!
alright so, ive had BEA/PAM fears for a really, really long time, way before i joined this forum (although i'd still lurk just to get some peace of mind) and at some times it's gotten so bad to the point where i am afraid to take showers (i still do though-just with a makeshift nose clip) but, lately my fears subside and i'm okay
today though, i went to a birthday party at my dad's family's house, and they have a pool there. well, i swam in that pool, didn't go underwater, just played water polo with my cousins and some of their children, and i was wearing earplugs as noseplugs (i looked silly i know, but i knew i wasnt going to be able to swim if i didnt have them) but they were a bit loose, and a few times i had water splashed in my face and i'm pretty sure i got some amount of water in my nose. not a lot, but probably some tiny droplets.
i got home a few hours ago, and now the fear is starting to manifest itself into the surface of my mind. i'm 90% sure the water was chlorinated, i saw a few boxes of chlorinating tablets around the pool area, but then there's the fear of "what if the water wasn't chlorinated enough??????" the water also wasn't super warm, either. but you all know how HA goes and how irrational it can be. the chances of getting this damn thing are pretty much one in a million and yet still...
i know it's silly but the fear is still there. :weep:
brain eating amoebas!!!
alright so, ive had BEA/PAM fears for a really, really long time, way before i joined this forum (although i'd still lurk just to get some peace of mind) and at some times it's gotten so bad to the point where i am afraid to take showers (i still do though-just with a makeshift nose clip) but, lately my fears subside and i'm okay
today though, i went to a birthday party at my dad's family's house, and they have a pool there. well, i swam in that pool, didn't go underwater, just played water polo with my cousins and some of their children, and i was wearing earplugs as noseplugs (i looked silly i know, but i knew i wasnt going to be able to swim if i didnt have them) but they were a bit loose, and a few times i had water splashed in my face and i'm pretty sure i got some amount of water in my nose. not a lot, but probably some tiny droplets.
i got home a few hours ago, and now the fear is starting to manifest itself into the surface of my mind. i'm 90% sure the water was chlorinated, i saw a few boxes of chlorinating tablets around the pool area, but then there's the fear of "what if the water wasn't chlorinated enough??????" the water also wasn't super warm, either. but you all know how HA goes and how irrational it can be. the chances of getting this damn thing are pretty much one in a million and yet still...
i know it's silly but the fear is still there. :weep: