losin
17-08-19, 21:31
My ocd has fixated on something that has spiralled over the past few days.
It started when I read something online about vermiculite loft insulation possibly being contaminated with asbestos. Apparently a major supplier from the States imported the contaminated insulation years ago. We have vermiculite in our loft and it matches the description of the dangerous one. There is fibreglass insulation laid over it, but there are huge patches where it doesn't fit and the vermiculite is on full show. I started to get paranoid that it was dangerous for us to have our stuff in the loft and that the kids have been exposed to it when they've helped me load boxes up there.
The more I looked online for info (always a bad mistake where ocd is concerned!) the more scared I became as it said artex ceilings can also contain asbestos and that the artex shouldn't be drilled or cut into. We had our loft hatch enlarged a few years ago and the builder never mentioned that the artex could be dangerous. They cut the larger hole and cleaned up and that was that.
I have drilled into the kitchen ceiling to hang a pan hanger from the ceiling. Apparently this is a no-no as well.
I'm terrified I've exposed my family to dangerous asbestos and that they're going to get ill in the future because of me. I'm so scared I can't eat and have been throwing up because of the fear.
Why didn't I research all these things before? Why has all this only occurred to me now?
My husband says because the house used to be a local authority property it would probably have been tested for asbestos in the past.
I'm so bloody frightened. My husband says it's my ocd playing tricks and the risks were minimal - he thinks we're more at risk from other things in everyday life like driving on the motorway or eating junk food.
It started when I read something online about vermiculite loft insulation possibly being contaminated with asbestos. Apparently a major supplier from the States imported the contaminated insulation years ago. We have vermiculite in our loft and it matches the description of the dangerous one. There is fibreglass insulation laid over it, but there are huge patches where it doesn't fit and the vermiculite is on full show. I started to get paranoid that it was dangerous for us to have our stuff in the loft and that the kids have been exposed to it when they've helped me load boxes up there.
The more I looked online for info (always a bad mistake where ocd is concerned!) the more scared I became as it said artex ceilings can also contain asbestos and that the artex shouldn't be drilled or cut into. We had our loft hatch enlarged a few years ago and the builder never mentioned that the artex could be dangerous. They cut the larger hole and cleaned up and that was that.
I have drilled into the kitchen ceiling to hang a pan hanger from the ceiling. Apparently this is a no-no as well.
I'm terrified I've exposed my family to dangerous asbestos and that they're going to get ill in the future because of me. I'm so scared I can't eat and have been throwing up because of the fear.
Why didn't I research all these things before? Why has all this only occurred to me now?
My husband says because the house used to be a local authority property it would probably have been tested for asbestos in the past.
I'm so bloody frightened. My husband says it's my ocd playing tricks and the risks were minimal - he thinks we're more at risk from other things in everyday life like driving on the motorway or eating junk food.