lofwyr
20-08-19, 01:16
It just seems endless, the seesaw of back and forth, to and fro, anxious one minute, fine the next. Medical stuff has been flying at me at the rate of two or three issues a year now.
I am awaiting the official word of the biopsy, but my derm seems pretty sure what I have going on on the bridge of my nose is micronodular basal cell carcinoma. Obviously, anything can happen and it isn't cancer until it is, but it walks like a duck, talks like a duck.
I know basal cell is rarely deadly. In fact only 1 in 6000 people who get it will die from it, and most of them are the very elderly patients with other health issues.
That said, if this comes back as what my derm thinks it is, it is an aggressive form of the disease. While that doesn't make it particularly more fatal or anything like that, in my case, it covers a lot of real estate and it is a more invasive form. I have let this slide for 8 months, initially thinking it was an age spot. I am projecting, of course, as one does when the dragon is at the door, but I am honestly having a hard time not doing so, even using the tools I have in the tool box. While I expect to live a happy life, unencumbered by BCC, I made the mistake of looking up how they deal with it. Woops.
The scars left from much smaller BCC than mine can be huge. Mine has all the markings of a well developed cancer, and the visible portion on my nose is maybe 1.5 x 3 cm. Maybe a bit bigger. I am catastrophising and projecting massive reconstructive surgeries, and something unpleasant to look at on the road there.
Aside from my venting, I am pretty much curious if anyone here has had massive, reconstructive mohs surgery? Any dealing with larger basal cell cancers? Maybe reconstructive surgery for something else?
I am keeping my fingers crossed, but my dermatologist didn't seem real hopeful it would be benign, which makes it hard putting my head in the sand and ditching the anxiety.
I am awaiting the official word of the biopsy, but my derm seems pretty sure what I have going on on the bridge of my nose is micronodular basal cell carcinoma. Obviously, anything can happen and it isn't cancer until it is, but it walks like a duck, talks like a duck.
I know basal cell is rarely deadly. In fact only 1 in 6000 people who get it will die from it, and most of them are the very elderly patients with other health issues.
That said, if this comes back as what my derm thinks it is, it is an aggressive form of the disease. While that doesn't make it particularly more fatal or anything like that, in my case, it covers a lot of real estate and it is a more invasive form. I have let this slide for 8 months, initially thinking it was an age spot. I am projecting, of course, as one does when the dragon is at the door, but I am honestly having a hard time not doing so, even using the tools I have in the tool box. While I expect to live a happy life, unencumbered by BCC, I made the mistake of looking up how they deal with it. Woops.
The scars left from much smaller BCC than mine can be huge. Mine has all the markings of a well developed cancer, and the visible portion on my nose is maybe 1.5 x 3 cm. Maybe a bit bigger. I am catastrophising and projecting massive reconstructive surgeries, and something unpleasant to look at on the road there.
Aside from my venting, I am pretty much curious if anyone here has had massive, reconstructive mohs surgery? Any dealing with larger basal cell cancers? Maybe reconstructive surgery for something else?
I am keeping my fingers crossed, but my dermatologist didn't seem real hopeful it would be benign, which makes it hard putting my head in the sand and ditching the anxiety.