ScaredCaz
24-08-19, 12:53
Hey guys
I have been a member here for many years but I haven’t posted in a long time not because I have been ok I guess I was just trying to get on with it which I was for the most part but this week has been awful
I have fibromyalgia and health anxiety plus a couple of other things IBS and on lifelong medication because my thyroid doesn’t work
My problems started 11 years ago nearly when my 62 year old mam died suddenly of an Aortic Stenosis since that very day I have been in physical pain I remember sitting in my mams kitchen the day after she died and having chest pain and I have felt it pretty much every day since
I’ve done a lot of things to try and help myself I try and do some relaxation breathing and try my hardest to think positive but it doesn’t always work and at the minute I’m stuck on this cycle of thinking my time is up and feeling everything I imagine goes along with that
I quit smoking nearly 3 years ago and in the last 2.5 years I have lost 7st 8.5lb I am trying so hard to look after myself so that I have a fighting chance of living past my 62nd birthday unlike my dear Mam 😞
This week my anxiety has been unshakable I’ve had horrendous back ache from the back of my neck to just below my ribs this was making my arms ache which convinced me my heart was on its way out I became obsessed with the heart monitor on my Fitbit and things went from bad to worse I had a massive panic attack at work on Monday night no one knew outwardly I probably looked fine inside I was screaming like a banshee
Then again on weds I was at my local weight loss group and I had been nominated for woman of the year for the 2nd year running I was up with 7 other ladies and I had to do a little speech I was petrified I don’t like it on a regular week when she asks me how I’ve been doing in front of everyone I go hit my vision goes funny and I can barely speak feel like I’m running out of breath now she wanted me to stand up and explain why I started to lose weight I ended up embarrassing myself and had to leave the room in full blown panic mode chest pains couldn’t breath wanted to cry omg it was so embarrassing
I went docs the following day she said it was all down to my trapezius muscles and told me to take the naproxen I have been subscribed for my fibromyalgia
I haven’t actually took any yet I am trying so hard to work my way through this I have work again all day tomorrow in a way I’m glad in another way I’m scared of a repeat of Monday I only work Sundays and Mondays so haven’t been in since
Why can’t I just believe what the doc told me? Why do I feel I’m on the cusp of a heart attack any minute? I really hate this and I would be so grateful for any thoughts from anyone
Thanks so much
Scared caz
I have been a member here for many years but I haven’t posted in a long time not because I have been ok I guess I was just trying to get on with it which I was for the most part but this week has been awful
I have fibromyalgia and health anxiety plus a couple of other things IBS and on lifelong medication because my thyroid doesn’t work
My problems started 11 years ago nearly when my 62 year old mam died suddenly of an Aortic Stenosis since that very day I have been in physical pain I remember sitting in my mams kitchen the day after she died and having chest pain and I have felt it pretty much every day since
I’ve done a lot of things to try and help myself I try and do some relaxation breathing and try my hardest to think positive but it doesn’t always work and at the minute I’m stuck on this cycle of thinking my time is up and feeling everything I imagine goes along with that
I quit smoking nearly 3 years ago and in the last 2.5 years I have lost 7st 8.5lb I am trying so hard to look after myself so that I have a fighting chance of living past my 62nd birthday unlike my dear Mam 😞
This week my anxiety has been unshakable I’ve had horrendous back ache from the back of my neck to just below my ribs this was making my arms ache which convinced me my heart was on its way out I became obsessed with the heart monitor on my Fitbit and things went from bad to worse I had a massive panic attack at work on Monday night no one knew outwardly I probably looked fine inside I was screaming like a banshee
Then again on weds I was at my local weight loss group and I had been nominated for woman of the year for the 2nd year running I was up with 7 other ladies and I had to do a little speech I was petrified I don’t like it on a regular week when she asks me how I’ve been doing in front of everyone I go hit my vision goes funny and I can barely speak feel like I’m running out of breath now she wanted me to stand up and explain why I started to lose weight I ended up embarrassing myself and had to leave the room in full blown panic mode chest pains couldn’t breath wanted to cry omg it was so embarrassing
I went docs the following day she said it was all down to my trapezius muscles and told me to take the naproxen I have been subscribed for my fibromyalgia
I haven’t actually took any yet I am trying so hard to work my way through this I have work again all day tomorrow in a way I’m glad in another way I’m scared of a repeat of Monday I only work Sundays and Mondays so haven’t been in since
Why can’t I just believe what the doc told me? Why do I feel I’m on the cusp of a heart attack any minute? I really hate this and I would be so grateful for any thoughts from anyone
Thanks so much
Scared caz