whome
30-08-19, 14:50
Hello everyone!
I don't even know where to start, but I can say this...after looking around on this site, it is like a breath of fresh air! I feel terrible that there are others who suffer from such anxiety but at the same time, I am thankful I found them on here. I am slowly realizing that I have been struggling with health anxiety for a long time and just now really putting the pieces together. Of course, I am currently in a "crisis" and that is how I found this site. I have been googling my symptoms for about a week or more and have just turned inward and am stuck in my own mind over it all. The researching, self-diagnosing, worrying...it is SO time-consuming and exhausting! I sit on the computer for hours on end, reading "How I knew I had cancer," "How my cancer was diagnosed," "Stage 4 terminal cancer patient stories" and just slipping deeper and deeper into a dark hole when I read about someone who started with the same symptoms I have. I have made lists of those symptoms and bounce back and forth online from one terrible diagnosis to the next depending on what my google symptom search returns.
Here is the kicker-I am in the medical field and have been for more than 20 years. You would think I could use that knowledge to reassure myself right? Just the opposite! I know just enough to scare myself but not enough to reassure myself.
I just wanted to say hello to all because I feel I will spend a lot of time here. It already feels wonderful to vent these feelings without fear of judgement from others. This is an issue that hardly anyone knows about me.
Hope everyone is well and has a blessed day! :D
I don't even know where to start, but I can say this...after looking around on this site, it is like a breath of fresh air! I feel terrible that there are others who suffer from such anxiety but at the same time, I am thankful I found them on here. I am slowly realizing that I have been struggling with health anxiety for a long time and just now really putting the pieces together. Of course, I am currently in a "crisis" and that is how I found this site. I have been googling my symptoms for about a week or more and have just turned inward and am stuck in my own mind over it all. The researching, self-diagnosing, worrying...it is SO time-consuming and exhausting! I sit on the computer for hours on end, reading "How I knew I had cancer," "How my cancer was diagnosed," "Stage 4 terminal cancer patient stories" and just slipping deeper and deeper into a dark hole when I read about someone who started with the same symptoms I have. I have made lists of those symptoms and bounce back and forth online from one terrible diagnosis to the next depending on what my google symptom search returns.
Here is the kicker-I am in the medical field and have been for more than 20 years. You would think I could use that knowledge to reassure myself right? Just the opposite! I know just enough to scare myself but not enough to reassure myself.
I just wanted to say hello to all because I feel I will spend a lot of time here. It already feels wonderful to vent these feelings without fear of judgement from others. This is an issue that hardly anyone knows about me.
Hope everyone is well and has a blessed day! :D