UserName20
05-09-19, 20:06
Hey guys, this post is more of just a vent. I’m sure many of you have been in a similar situation who are struggling with health anxiety.
I am 19 and ( was in college. ) My anxiety used to keep me from going to doctors. I’m sure others here can relate to this feeling.. where you just “know” something is wrong and want to avoid hearing the news to make it “real.” However, this past year I have gotten out of that cycle and have been going to doctors. As many as you have probably read from my last post I had gone to the ER over feeling my heart race. I am still on my parents insurance as I still live at home. And wow, that bill is a killer. I guess I’m getting a swift kick in the rear and a welcome to “adult life.”
Since that visit I was surprised at other calls I was getting telling me that I owe money. Since I was 18 years old last year in high school I had thought my parents were helping with the medical bills as I was paying my way through college. However, I was caught off guard to find out that none of them have been paid. My parents are extremely upset at me for going to the ER the night and keep telling me how stupid I am for taking trips to the doctor. I know my parents have not experienced anxiety with health things and I know that they can’t really understand. That night I felt like I had no Choice. I’m not going to lie it’s hurtful and hard to hear my parents yelling at me about everything. I know they just kind of shake their head at the fact I’m on medication. I just keep it in my room and don’t really talk about it but then again they don’t ask. And I also can’t blame them for not understanding.
This month has been incredibly stressful for me. I’m trying to organize and figure out how to pay for all of these bills. I dropped my college classes in order to help with my ER bill. ( I was just a cashier since high school and was planning to be one part time through college ) But now I am having to look for a full time job and have accepted college just isn’t possible at this point. It has really made me realize that for the sake of my bank account I can absolutely not continue on this path. I am knee deep in bills all for doctors to tell me there is nothing wrong with me besides anxiety. I guess if there was one good thing out of all of this it is that I have a greater appreciation for what the real world really costs and that I am finally on medication to help with my anxiety. I have been working through free books on this site, I’m not sure I can afford therapy as of right now but eventually I would like to.
I guess just a little venting I had that I figured others on this site may be able to relate to. I know this stress is at times making my anxiety a bit worse. But as long as I keep moving forward I know it’ll work out in the end! I hope you guys are all having a good week.
I am 19 and ( was in college. ) My anxiety used to keep me from going to doctors. I’m sure others here can relate to this feeling.. where you just “know” something is wrong and want to avoid hearing the news to make it “real.” However, this past year I have gotten out of that cycle and have been going to doctors. As many as you have probably read from my last post I had gone to the ER over feeling my heart race. I am still on my parents insurance as I still live at home. And wow, that bill is a killer. I guess I’m getting a swift kick in the rear and a welcome to “adult life.”
Since that visit I was surprised at other calls I was getting telling me that I owe money. Since I was 18 years old last year in high school I had thought my parents were helping with the medical bills as I was paying my way through college. However, I was caught off guard to find out that none of them have been paid. My parents are extremely upset at me for going to the ER the night and keep telling me how stupid I am for taking trips to the doctor. I know my parents have not experienced anxiety with health things and I know that they can’t really understand. That night I felt like I had no Choice. I’m not going to lie it’s hurtful and hard to hear my parents yelling at me about everything. I know they just kind of shake their head at the fact I’m on medication. I just keep it in my room and don’t really talk about it but then again they don’t ask. And I also can’t blame them for not understanding.
This month has been incredibly stressful for me. I’m trying to organize and figure out how to pay for all of these bills. I dropped my college classes in order to help with my ER bill. ( I was just a cashier since high school and was planning to be one part time through college ) But now I am having to look for a full time job and have accepted college just isn’t possible at this point. It has really made me realize that for the sake of my bank account I can absolutely not continue on this path. I am knee deep in bills all for doctors to tell me there is nothing wrong with me besides anxiety. I guess if there was one good thing out of all of this it is that I have a greater appreciation for what the real world really costs and that I am finally on medication to help with my anxiety. I have been working through free books on this site, I’m not sure I can afford therapy as of right now but eventually I would like to.
I guess just a little venting I had that I figured others on this site may be able to relate to. I know this stress is at times making my anxiety a bit worse. But as long as I keep moving forward I know it’ll work out in the end! I hope you guys are all having a good week.