My happy ever after
20-10-19, 12:46
Hi everyone I hope you are all doing well.
I haven’t posted for ages but I’ve been following the forum.
I have had a really tough year and it’s finally all caught up with me.
It all started after I had issues with my return to work after maternity leave 12 months ago, I ended up resigning in the summer as my confidence was shattered and I couldn’t take it there anymore.
Then my baby had pneumonia and was in hospital, then my older daughter has been having some issues at school and we’ve been going through lots of assessments and diagnostics. Lots of uncertainty that my anxiety thrives on.
My husband then had pneumonia and was seriously ill in the summer.
Things settled and i found a wonderful new job and was successful at interview and started 6 weeks ago. I was so happy for this opportunity.
Since starting my job I have had awful anxiety and panic attacks like never before even whilst I’m at work my heart is pounding -my fitness watch often says my heart is over 110, I am sweating profusely even through 48hr deodorant (sorry tmi) and awful tight chest, light headeness and just catastrophizing and over thinking everything:(
Also having back pain and shoulder pains.
I just can’t carry on like this. I’ve always managed to use mindfulness and meditation to keep my anxiety level and had some CBT in the past.
I’ve tried chamomile tea, rescue remedy and it’s not helping a lot.
I am going to see GP tomorrow and discuss what I can do and I’m open to starting treatment for the first time. But I’m scared of medication but I think it may be needed now.
I’m due in work tomorrow and I just can’t face it, but I’m so worried taking time off of a new job too. I just can’t win. I’m worried I’ll then lose my job as I’m on probationary period. But if I don’t address this now then I’m going to end up very poorly so I think I’m going to have to.
My logical side says tell work i will be late as got to go to see the dr.
Then see the dr and see what they advise and if I get signed off then let work know.
I’ve lost all confidence in myself and just feel like I’m letting everyone down. I just want to feel happy again.
Can anyone give me any advice.
I think I may have some depression now too.
Thank you.
I haven’t posted for ages but I’ve been following the forum.
I have had a really tough year and it’s finally all caught up with me.
It all started after I had issues with my return to work after maternity leave 12 months ago, I ended up resigning in the summer as my confidence was shattered and I couldn’t take it there anymore.
Then my baby had pneumonia and was in hospital, then my older daughter has been having some issues at school and we’ve been going through lots of assessments and diagnostics. Lots of uncertainty that my anxiety thrives on.
My husband then had pneumonia and was seriously ill in the summer.
Things settled and i found a wonderful new job and was successful at interview and started 6 weeks ago. I was so happy for this opportunity.
Since starting my job I have had awful anxiety and panic attacks like never before even whilst I’m at work my heart is pounding -my fitness watch often says my heart is over 110, I am sweating profusely even through 48hr deodorant (sorry tmi) and awful tight chest, light headeness and just catastrophizing and over thinking everything:(
Also having back pain and shoulder pains.
I just can’t carry on like this. I’ve always managed to use mindfulness and meditation to keep my anxiety level and had some CBT in the past.
I’ve tried chamomile tea, rescue remedy and it’s not helping a lot.
I am going to see GP tomorrow and discuss what I can do and I’m open to starting treatment for the first time. But I’m scared of medication but I think it may be needed now.
I’m due in work tomorrow and I just can’t face it, but I’m so worried taking time off of a new job too. I just can’t win. I’m worried I’ll then lose my job as I’m on probationary period. But if I don’t address this now then I’m going to end up very poorly so I think I’m going to have to.
My logical side says tell work i will be late as got to go to see the dr.
Then see the dr and see what they advise and if I get signed off then let work know.
I’ve lost all confidence in myself and just feel like I’m letting everyone down. I just want to feel happy again.
Can anyone give me any advice.
I think I may have some depression now too.
Thank you.