unwellandworried
02-11-19, 04:41
Hello,
I really hope someone reads all this as I currently have crippling anxiety over my lymph nodes right now and am in desperate need of a piece of mind.
For some context, In August 2018 I went to the hospital for a different medical reason (abdominal cramps) and got a blood test taken that revealed slightly elevated white blood cells (looking back on it I'm worried that it may have been an early sign of lymphoma). In September of 2018 I was foolishly checking my neck for whatever reason and found an enlarged-(It's about the size of a small grape)-lymph node under my jaw on my right. This node in particular has never shrunk nor grew and is still here in the present, and is soft and movable when pushing on it, however when I prod at it, it becomes hard and barely movable for a short while then goes back to normal until I spiral again and check it over and over again. I went to the doctor for that in September 2018 which provoked no worry from the doctor, this should have been enough to make me feel better, but as 2018 went on I stayed anxious and check and prod at it every single day, even until now.
This year, in February I noticed another lymph node when I touch the side of my neck on the left, which seems to be swollen and feels about the same size as the other lymph node, it's movable but not really soft nor hard. Of course, I continuously touch it to this day (November) to check if it grows, but it never does, but it never shrinks either.
My nodes don't hurt, but they're scaring me to death and I fear that I really do have lymphoma, I do have a third lymph node in another part of my neck but it has the same feeling and size as a buckshot pellet, I don't remember when this showed up but I have had it for months probably and remains the same.
These nodes have been with me for about a year and they haven't gone away, I'm glad they haven't grown, at least I don't think they have, but I do check them every single day to see if they have grown and don't notice anything. I'm worried this may be a low grade lymphoma that's slowly invading my body... I have heard of shotty lymph nodes by constantly prodding at them like I have, but I'm still absolutely mortified over it being lymphoma... :unsure: I will have to go to the doctor again as I know I've been pushing it aside, I'm just scared that something bad is wrong with me and I'll be gone. :weep:
I really hope someone reads all this as I currently have crippling anxiety over my lymph nodes right now and am in desperate need of a piece of mind.
For some context, In August 2018 I went to the hospital for a different medical reason (abdominal cramps) and got a blood test taken that revealed slightly elevated white blood cells (looking back on it I'm worried that it may have been an early sign of lymphoma). In September of 2018 I was foolishly checking my neck for whatever reason and found an enlarged-(It's about the size of a small grape)-lymph node under my jaw on my right. This node in particular has never shrunk nor grew and is still here in the present, and is soft and movable when pushing on it, however when I prod at it, it becomes hard and barely movable for a short while then goes back to normal until I spiral again and check it over and over again. I went to the doctor for that in September 2018 which provoked no worry from the doctor, this should have been enough to make me feel better, but as 2018 went on I stayed anxious and check and prod at it every single day, even until now.
This year, in February I noticed another lymph node when I touch the side of my neck on the left, which seems to be swollen and feels about the same size as the other lymph node, it's movable but not really soft nor hard. Of course, I continuously touch it to this day (November) to check if it grows, but it never does, but it never shrinks either.
My nodes don't hurt, but they're scaring me to death and I fear that I really do have lymphoma, I do have a third lymph node in another part of my neck but it has the same feeling and size as a buckshot pellet, I don't remember when this showed up but I have had it for months probably and remains the same.
These nodes have been with me for about a year and they haven't gone away, I'm glad they haven't grown, at least I don't think they have, but I do check them every single day to see if they have grown and don't notice anything. I'm worried this may be a low grade lymphoma that's slowly invading my body... I have heard of shotty lymph nodes by constantly prodding at them like I have, but I'm still absolutely mortified over it being lymphoma... :unsure: I will have to go to the doctor again as I know I've been pushing it aside, I'm just scared that something bad is wrong with me and I'll be gone. :weep: