ScaredCaz
09-11-19, 14:24
Hi all
I’m back again with a random post I only ever come on here when I can’t see straight for fear you guys really always help me I’m so sorry I am no use to any of you 😢
A bit of background I’ve been this messed up ball of anxiety for about 11 years now my mam suddenly passed away from a Aortic Stenosis on 17.11.08 in the years since that happened I have developed crippling anxiety specifically health anxiety but I am also afraid my 3 grown daughter won’t be ok they have to text me regular with “I’m ok” updates otherwise I worry out of control and I have a 18 year old son who has Autism the worry about him is just beyond the realms of reality 😬
In the last 11 years I have been diagnosed with under active thyroid and fibromyalgia I have to have yearly blood tests to keep an eye on my thyroid levels I had my blood test yesterday I am in the middle of a fibro flare up so I don’t feel well and I have convinced myself to the point of anxiety hell that my bloods are not going to be normal
I hate living like this it is so draining does anyone else ever feel the same? Sometimes feel like I can’t cope sometimes feel like I don’t want to cope 😪
Sorry for the long post
Thanks guys
I’m back again with a random post I only ever come on here when I can’t see straight for fear you guys really always help me I’m so sorry I am no use to any of you 😢
A bit of background I’ve been this messed up ball of anxiety for about 11 years now my mam suddenly passed away from a Aortic Stenosis on 17.11.08 in the years since that happened I have developed crippling anxiety specifically health anxiety but I am also afraid my 3 grown daughter won’t be ok they have to text me regular with “I’m ok” updates otherwise I worry out of control and I have a 18 year old son who has Autism the worry about him is just beyond the realms of reality 😬
In the last 11 years I have been diagnosed with under active thyroid and fibromyalgia I have to have yearly blood tests to keep an eye on my thyroid levels I had my blood test yesterday I am in the middle of a fibro flare up so I don’t feel well and I have convinced myself to the point of anxiety hell that my bloods are not going to be normal
I hate living like this it is so draining does anyone else ever feel the same? Sometimes feel like I can’t cope sometimes feel like I don’t want to cope 😪
Sorry for the long post
Thanks guys