lanerbanana
10-11-19, 23:18
hello everyone, it's me again, knocking on the door
i have had yet ANOTHER fear again, this time mixed with my heart attack fear (which you know. is fun)
i've had a brain tumor fear for as long as i can remember. it's one of my worst HA fears. every headache i get i chalk it up to "oh it's brain tumor time!!!" even though deep down i know it isnt.
lately though, ive been getting these weird symptoms.
i've had pain in my eyebrow/under my eyes that switches from eye to eye (though im pretty sure that's from sinusitis as it gets better with warm/hot cloth treatment)
this weird, black floater in my right eye that i just noticed like. two weeks ago. sometimes it fades from my line of sight but whenever i look at something bright (like my computer screen or the sky) i see it and it's kinda annoying. whenever i go outside and look at the sky i not only see the floater but other ones too, but they go away. this black floater though doesnt seem to be going away. i've read that nearsighted people are more likely to get floaters and i am certainly nearsighted, haha
but i've also read that sometimes floaters can be caused by eye tumors (i don't think i specifically saw anything about brain tumors) but i don't think i have an eye tumor,,
i also seem to focus really hard on my cognitive function, like if i make even the slightest mistake in speaking or if i cant remember a specific detail
about a story or a person, i start to panic a little because usually i'm pretty good with remembering small details. that could be my anxiety but i'm not exactly sure.
my neck also tends to tense up a lot more frequently now, which might be the cause of the fatigue im also getting.
i just feel like im running on fumes at this point, and im scared to go to an eye doctor because
1. my family are already burdened by a lot of medical stuff right now, so i dont want to add to that and have it be for nothing
2. what if they DO find something? what if they find my intra crainial pressure is raised and they find a tumor?
i guess i just need some reassurance that i dont have a brain tumor and that floaters are normal and aren't a sign of bad things to come.
thank you guys in advance <3
i have had yet ANOTHER fear again, this time mixed with my heart attack fear (which you know. is fun)
i've had a brain tumor fear for as long as i can remember. it's one of my worst HA fears. every headache i get i chalk it up to "oh it's brain tumor time!!!" even though deep down i know it isnt.
lately though, ive been getting these weird symptoms.
i've had pain in my eyebrow/under my eyes that switches from eye to eye (though im pretty sure that's from sinusitis as it gets better with warm/hot cloth treatment)
this weird, black floater in my right eye that i just noticed like. two weeks ago. sometimes it fades from my line of sight but whenever i look at something bright (like my computer screen or the sky) i see it and it's kinda annoying. whenever i go outside and look at the sky i not only see the floater but other ones too, but they go away. this black floater though doesnt seem to be going away. i've read that nearsighted people are more likely to get floaters and i am certainly nearsighted, haha
but i've also read that sometimes floaters can be caused by eye tumors (i don't think i specifically saw anything about brain tumors) but i don't think i have an eye tumor,,
i also seem to focus really hard on my cognitive function, like if i make even the slightest mistake in speaking or if i cant remember a specific detail
about a story or a person, i start to panic a little because usually i'm pretty good with remembering small details. that could be my anxiety but i'm not exactly sure.
my neck also tends to tense up a lot more frequently now, which might be the cause of the fatigue im also getting.
i just feel like im running on fumes at this point, and im scared to go to an eye doctor because
1. my family are already burdened by a lot of medical stuff right now, so i dont want to add to that and have it be for nothing
2. what if they DO find something? what if they find my intra crainial pressure is raised and they find a tumor?
i guess i just need some reassurance that i dont have a brain tumor and that floaters are normal and aren't a sign of bad things to come.
thank you guys in advance <3