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19-12-19, 15:11
It's not even just anxiety, despite correctly predicting the outcome of the latest election, I feel straight up depressed. I have been irritable, easily set off into tears or stages where I just feel dead inside. To know the country you are shackled to is full of people gleeful over your suffering or who thinks risking your (as in, all of ours') livelihood is worth it for some reasons like disliking foreigners or thinking somehow the UK will go back in time to the "good old days" (these are the most common reasons I have read). I have seen so much hate for people like me, and EU citizens in the UK. I can apply for Danish citizenship next year, but it will still take more than a year to process from that point. And I see no way out, it's done, the worst is going to happen now and I am powerless. I do not trust Boris and co to look out for us in the slightest, I don't think they care at all. I don't feel English anymore I feel like I have no real nationality, the UK apparently doesn't accept people like me or people who moved there in good faith and now have to jump through hoops. But I can't be Danish either for a long time, years of this limbo has been killing me when I already suffer from strong GAD and depression. I can only keep my healthcare because Denmark says we can, what about the other British citizens in the EU? I feel nobody cares about us (including EU in UK people), we're largely ignored. I feel unwelcome everywhere right now, especially England.
I have a flight to London today, to see my family for Christmas. I don't want to go, thinking about it makes me want to cry, but I couldn't do this to my family. I know my anxiety is talking here, but I keep imagining everyone around me are people who think people like me deserve this. I know people with no plans to move abroad who can get Irish citizenship over some fairly distant connections, and it hurts, my heritage is so plain English so no luck there at all.
At least I am not getting deported, but I am still having a huge identity crisis. These years have been limbo hell and I am extremely hurt and bitter. This isn't fair and it is making me deeply resent my homeland which I used to be proud of :( I'm broken
I have a flight to London today, to see my family for Christmas. I don't want to go, thinking about it makes me want to cry, but I couldn't do this to my family. I know my anxiety is talking here, but I keep imagining everyone around me are people who think people like me deserve this. I know people with no plans to move abroad who can get Irish citizenship over some fairly distant connections, and it hurts, my heritage is so plain English so no luck there at all.
At least I am not getting deported, but I am still having a huge identity crisis. These years have been limbo hell and I am extremely hurt and bitter. This isn't fair and it is making me deeply resent my homeland which I used to be proud of :( I'm broken