camilla
24-01-05, 12:20
i feel really confused at the moment. [Sigh...]
i have been told by my consultant a suggestion of coming into hospital for evenings and nights to help me get through the hardest time of the day. but the thing is i have already been in hospital 3 times because of the risk i have in commiting suicide.
i havent found it helpful and came out worse than what i was when i came in. its the thrid hospital i went into which are offering me a place. i was in there in march 2004 and they kicked me out for self-harming and taking an overdose. i was particually bad in nov04 so they were suggesting i came back which i was agreeing 2 but i got very suicidal before they had a meeting to decuss this i took an overdose. colwood wouldnt take me after that so i ended up in an adult unit for a night. i was told that i wasnt the right place either which it wasnt because it was mainly for people who are psychotic or have drug and alchol problems which i dont.
so now when they asked me about coming back in. i really dont trust them and not happy with the idea.
i am not coping well at the moment with my self-harm of straggling and solvent abuse and feeling suicidal. i havent told anyone about the solvent abuse cos i am worried they will try and stopped me or take me to hospital against my will. :(
i dont think there is any thing which will help. should i go back to hospital even though it hasnt helped before???
camilla
i have been told by my consultant a suggestion of coming into hospital for evenings and nights to help me get through the hardest time of the day. but the thing is i have already been in hospital 3 times because of the risk i have in commiting suicide.
i havent found it helpful and came out worse than what i was when i came in. its the thrid hospital i went into which are offering me a place. i was in there in march 2004 and they kicked me out for self-harming and taking an overdose. i was particually bad in nov04 so they were suggesting i came back which i was agreeing 2 but i got very suicidal before they had a meeting to decuss this i took an overdose. colwood wouldnt take me after that so i ended up in an adult unit for a night. i was told that i wasnt the right place either which it wasnt because it was mainly for people who are psychotic or have drug and alchol problems which i dont.
so now when they asked me about coming back in. i really dont trust them and not happy with the idea.
i am not coping well at the moment with my self-harm of straggling and solvent abuse and feeling suicidal. i havent told anyone about the solvent abuse cos i am worried they will try and stopped me or take me to hospital against my will. :(
i dont think there is any thing which will help. should i go back to hospital even though it hasnt helped before???
camilla