ErinKC
31-12-19, 13:29
I'm in a shitty place right now. These fibroids are causing a lot of uncomfortable symptoms, the newest of which is horrible, constant reflux. I know stressing about it doesn't help, but it's just so bad.
I'm feeling really, really down. I feel like I'm in a trap because my only options are feel like shit or have surgery. I feel let down by doctors who I trusted to help me keep track of these and then ignored all my concerns even when they knew the fibroids had grown (but didn't tell me). I feel like I also let myself down because of my anxiety. If I had dealt with them in the summer when I first found out they'd grown I could have been done and moved on.
I have an appointment with my gyn on the 7th and a surgeon (the same one who did my emergency fibroid surgery in 2011) on the 14th. I'm just debating if I should call my primary and try to see her today about the reflux and other pain.
I'm sad. I don't know how to pull myself out of this. I don't typically get depressed, but that's how I'm feeling. I'm due to go back to school on the 13th and so worried I won't be able to handle it.
My daughter goes back to school on Thursday and I'm dreading having to get up and bring her. I haven't felt this down in a long time.
I'm feeling really, really down. I feel like I'm in a trap because my only options are feel like shit or have surgery. I feel let down by doctors who I trusted to help me keep track of these and then ignored all my concerns even when they knew the fibroids had grown (but didn't tell me). I feel like I also let myself down because of my anxiety. If I had dealt with them in the summer when I first found out they'd grown I could have been done and moved on.
I have an appointment with my gyn on the 7th and a surgeon (the same one who did my emergency fibroid surgery in 2011) on the 14th. I'm just debating if I should call my primary and try to see her today about the reflux and other pain.
I'm sad. I don't know how to pull myself out of this. I don't typically get depressed, but that's how I'm feeling. I'm due to go back to school on the 13th and so worried I won't be able to handle it.
My daughter goes back to school on Thursday and I'm dreading having to get up and bring her. I haven't felt this down in a long time.