maryjane91
08-02-20, 12:07
Hi everyone.
So, recently my partner and I split up. We have been together for over 8 years and have to children aged 6 and 4.
The decision to split up is mutual and we remain really good friends, so that's good. But still, I feel incredibly anxious and stressed. Of course I worry about the kids and how they will react to the news and how it will be for them having to split their time between two homes. I worry about how much I am going to miss them when they are at their dad's. I worry about how I am going to afford living alone. And then... of course... I worry about my health. I don't do well with major life changes. I have OCD, health anxiety and generalized anxiety disorder.
I have never lived alone. I have known my children's dad since we were teens and I have only ever lived at home or with him. I don't know how I am going to cope living by myself. In the months leading up to the split, I have been feeling under the weather more or less constantly. Since the split (two weeks ago), I have been feeling even worse… I have so many physical symptoms in addition to my worries. I feel sick, I can't sleep, I wake up in the middle of the night sweating and in pain. I have headaches, tingling, visual disturbances, fasciculations. I feel like I am going to die. My doctor is not worried about my physcial health, but he is concerned about my mental health. I already take an SSRI and my doctor has prescribed quetiapine to help me sleep, but I am afraid to take it.
I don't really know where I am going with this post. Maybe just some words of reassurance - perhaps from someone who has also gone through major life changes like divorce with an anxiety disorder and survived. I feel very scared and alone right now.
So, recently my partner and I split up. We have been together for over 8 years and have to children aged 6 and 4.
The decision to split up is mutual and we remain really good friends, so that's good. But still, I feel incredibly anxious and stressed. Of course I worry about the kids and how they will react to the news and how it will be for them having to split their time between two homes. I worry about how much I am going to miss them when they are at their dad's. I worry about how I am going to afford living alone. And then... of course... I worry about my health. I don't do well with major life changes. I have OCD, health anxiety and generalized anxiety disorder.
I have never lived alone. I have known my children's dad since we were teens and I have only ever lived at home or with him. I don't know how I am going to cope living by myself. In the months leading up to the split, I have been feeling under the weather more or less constantly. Since the split (two weeks ago), I have been feeling even worse… I have so many physical symptoms in addition to my worries. I feel sick, I can't sleep, I wake up in the middle of the night sweating and in pain. I have headaches, tingling, visual disturbances, fasciculations. I feel like I am going to die. My doctor is not worried about my physcial health, but he is concerned about my mental health. I already take an SSRI and my doctor has prescribed quetiapine to help me sleep, but I am afraid to take it.
I don't really know where I am going with this post. Maybe just some words of reassurance - perhaps from someone who has also gone through major life changes like divorce with an anxiety disorder and survived. I feel very scared and alone right now.