Cptdebbie
08-02-20, 22:09
Two and a half weeks ago I had a weird prism-like afterimage of a light. I mentioned to my gp and he said not to worry unless it happens again. I had another weird visual thing happen last night, but I know I'm not in the right mind to evaluate it. I had to have a breast MRI this week (I'm at high risk for breast cancer) and next week is my dermatology check (I'm at high risk for melanoma). Plus, I'm struggling with my own sense of self worth. That issue took some hits from my children last Sunday at our family Super Bowl watch party. The result is that I'm an anxious mess at the moment and my usual coping mechanisms aren't working.
This is what happened last night: I was driving home in the dark. (I don't usually drive in the dark.) It was kind of wet outside and my car windows were spotted. When I pulled into my neighborhood I became aware of all the lights and they started bothering me a bit. When I pulled into my garage, I noticed a little round multi-colored orb on my car windshield. My first thought was, "Hey, that's a candy bomb thing from Candy Crush." Then I realized it couldn't possibly be that because it was on my car window. This all happened in a second or less - very fast.
I went into my home thinking that my brain must have interpreted some sort of water/light/prism thing on my windshield as the candy bomb. I was okay for about a half hour. Then, my anxiety kicked in big time. I thought of brain tumors, hallucinations, parkinson's, ms, and the whole gambit. Now my stomach is in knots and I can't pull it together. I don't want to call any of my kids to ground me. They already think I'm nuts. Actually, I think I'm nuts.
I tried to be reasonable and came up with a plan. I decided to assume these visual quirks were either normal aberrations or products of my anxiety until I see my gp again in 2 1/2 months. During that time I will be more consistent at all the things I do to help my anxiety - meditate, do yoga, etc. Waiting will also allow me to, hopefully, get past these scary health checks and the added strain they cause. At the end of the 2 1/2 months, I can then decide if I want to bring this up again to my gp and or my ophthalmologist (whom I saw about 4 months ago).
Does this seem reasonable? My other thought is to run screaming to the ER.
I have visual floaters and little sparkles, which I know are normal. I'm going to be 60 this year. My eyes are aging. I also have dry eyes. Could age be a contributing factor to visual quirks?
Have any of you experienced something like this before?
I would very much appreciate your help. I have complex-PTSD and am really struggling at the moment.
~ Debbie
This is what happened last night: I was driving home in the dark. (I don't usually drive in the dark.) It was kind of wet outside and my car windows were spotted. When I pulled into my neighborhood I became aware of all the lights and they started bothering me a bit. When I pulled into my garage, I noticed a little round multi-colored orb on my car windshield. My first thought was, "Hey, that's a candy bomb thing from Candy Crush." Then I realized it couldn't possibly be that because it was on my car window. This all happened in a second or less - very fast.
I went into my home thinking that my brain must have interpreted some sort of water/light/prism thing on my windshield as the candy bomb. I was okay for about a half hour. Then, my anxiety kicked in big time. I thought of brain tumors, hallucinations, parkinson's, ms, and the whole gambit. Now my stomach is in knots and I can't pull it together. I don't want to call any of my kids to ground me. They already think I'm nuts. Actually, I think I'm nuts.
I tried to be reasonable and came up with a plan. I decided to assume these visual quirks were either normal aberrations or products of my anxiety until I see my gp again in 2 1/2 months. During that time I will be more consistent at all the things I do to help my anxiety - meditate, do yoga, etc. Waiting will also allow me to, hopefully, get past these scary health checks and the added strain they cause. At the end of the 2 1/2 months, I can then decide if I want to bring this up again to my gp and or my ophthalmologist (whom I saw about 4 months ago).
Does this seem reasonable? My other thought is to run screaming to the ER.
I have visual floaters and little sparkles, which I know are normal. I'm going to be 60 this year. My eyes are aging. I also have dry eyes. Could age be a contributing factor to visual quirks?
Have any of you experienced something like this before?
I would very much appreciate your help. I have complex-PTSD and am really struggling at the moment.
~ Debbie