GingerFish
10-02-20, 13:22
As some of you know, my stepdad died a couple of days after Christmas recently so my panic attacks, anxiety and stress in general have been very high lately. I thought I had turned a corner or at least had a bit of respite so went out with my friends on Sat night for a catch up and much needed laughs. Had a little too much to drink, wont lie and enjoyed it at the time and regretted it instantly the next morning and remembered why I have cut down a lot. Yesterday from the moment I woke up I was extremely anxious, had bad DP/DR, chest pains, restlessness etc and it all came to a head when my husband took me out for a drive to try and calm me down but what happened was I had a huge panic attack and it got stronger the further away we got from our local hospital, if that doesn't scream panic attack and fearing needing reassurance then what does? I managed to calm myself down through breathing, listening to music and singing along badly and then letting time pass. I even went into Asda after it for a few things which was a huge achievement.
I tried to sleep last night but the panic kept creeping and I could only drift off for an hour at a time and then wake up either anxious again or just restless and then I would be up for another couple of hours and sleep for another hour. Same happened this morning after my occupational therapist left, I tried to sleep and only managed an hour at most but I dreamt at least.
I feel so detached from everything even myself like all my body will allow me to feel is restlessness and anxiety. I have avoided my cats and husband because the energy needed to talk or even seen reassurance just feels like too much of an effort. I have no appetite but I am forcing myself to eat and drink. I feel like a zombie or that I have been zapped by energy. The sleep thing is annoying me the most because a good sleep helps everything.
Have any of you experienced an anxiety/panic attack aftermath like this? I am listening to Dr Claire Weekes audiobooks as I write this, just about to have lunch, hoovered a little and might play a video game for a little while. I want to feel normal and I wish I could click my fingers and feel better but like Dr Weekes says, float and let time pass. Its bloody hard though especially with grief on top. I am trying to just deal with this panic aftermath first and then move onto grief again. Though I know grief will still be bubbling away right now.
Take care everyone. Hope you are all keeping well :hugs:
I tried to sleep last night but the panic kept creeping and I could only drift off for an hour at a time and then wake up either anxious again or just restless and then I would be up for another couple of hours and sleep for another hour. Same happened this morning after my occupational therapist left, I tried to sleep and only managed an hour at most but I dreamt at least.
I feel so detached from everything even myself like all my body will allow me to feel is restlessness and anxiety. I have avoided my cats and husband because the energy needed to talk or even seen reassurance just feels like too much of an effort. I have no appetite but I am forcing myself to eat and drink. I feel like a zombie or that I have been zapped by energy. The sleep thing is annoying me the most because a good sleep helps everything.
Have any of you experienced an anxiety/panic attack aftermath like this? I am listening to Dr Claire Weekes audiobooks as I write this, just about to have lunch, hoovered a little and might play a video game for a little while. I want to feel normal and I wish I could click my fingers and feel better but like Dr Weekes says, float and let time pass. Its bloody hard though especially with grief on top. I am trying to just deal with this panic aftermath first and then move onto grief again. Though I know grief will still be bubbling away right now.
Take care everyone. Hope you are all keeping well :hugs: