Phoenixess
11-02-20, 08:24
I’m just wondering if anyone else has had similar experience....
I used to be highly concerned about how others felt about me and what they would do. Like I was in grave danger, they would come and harm me! I was preconsumed by their distaste in me and the bad things I had done. It was punitive and self hatred that fuelled these thoughts. Except for some reason I’m not sure what perhaps age or acceptance I came to the conclusion I don’t give a flying two dogs dinners what ANYONE thinks about me and actually that helped to quit the drinking part of my life. Whereas before I was consumed by worry of others or past relationships and I would drink to shut it up.
Then now I have this new overwhelming health anxiety if you like, that I am convinced there is something wrong and no one is believing me. Except when I had bizarre difficult terrifying symptoms this weekend I didn’t call and ambulance and I treated it as panic attacks. I am still here but still doubting what went on.
So couple of questions, when people have tried to utilised the CBT more did it make things worse? (That is what I’m experiencing)
Has anyone here tried psychotherapy? Was this useful because I’m considering paying, I’d give my right arm not to live in this hell any more?
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I used to be highly concerned about how others felt about me and what they would do. Like I was in grave danger, they would come and harm me! I was preconsumed by their distaste in me and the bad things I had done. It was punitive and self hatred that fuelled these thoughts. Except for some reason I’m not sure what perhaps age or acceptance I came to the conclusion I don’t give a flying two dogs dinners what ANYONE thinks about me and actually that helped to quit the drinking part of my life. Whereas before I was consumed by worry of others or past relationships and I would drink to shut it up.
Then now I have this new overwhelming health anxiety if you like, that I am convinced there is something wrong and no one is believing me. Except when I had bizarre difficult terrifying symptoms this weekend I didn’t call and ambulance and I treated it as panic attacks. I am still here but still doubting what went on.
So couple of questions, when people have tried to utilised the CBT more did it make things worse? (That is what I’m experiencing)
Has anyone here tried psychotherapy? Was this useful because I’m considering paying, I’d give my right arm not to live in this hell any more?
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